For the love of Celestine #Wattys2015

Chapter 33

Hindi maalis sa isip ko ung text ni Celestine sa akin, that after so many years ngayon lng niya ako napadaanan ng text nya. Iniisip ko tuloy kung GM un eh, pero kung GM text un, dapat matagal na akong nakakatanggap sa kanya di ba? Iniisip ko kung para sa akin ung P.S nya, ako ba ung namimis nya? Letter M eh, my name starts at M, or probably ung Boyfriend nya ung namimis nya. Ano ba nangyari? Mahal pa kaya nya ako, sana, kahit sobrang liit ng chances papatusin ko, siya paren talaga. kaya hindi ko matanggap na nagkaboyfriend siya, kala ko ba mahal nya ako? dumaan rin ba siya sa pagbabago? Malamang mackross, kaya nga may boyfriend na eh.

 Kahit naging successful na akong tao, wala pareng nagbago pag nalulungkot at nasasaktan ako. humihiga sa kama nakatanaw sa ceiling. Old habits die hard nga di ba. Bumangon ako kinuha ko ung pictures namen nung kame pa. binuklat ko un, napangiti nlng ako, ang saya saya namen, sa bawat picture , masasabi ko na sobrang saya nameng pareho. Fuck naiiyak ako. sabe sa sarili ko hindi na ako iiyak pag nakita ko ulit to. Pero puta nakakaiyak. Nasasaktan paren ako. eh anong magagawa ko mahal ko eh.

 Nakita ko ung CD ng graduation speech, si mama may pakana nyan, hindi ko kagustuhan na videohan ung pag speech ko. Actually hindi ko pa napapanuod to , this will be my first time watching it. 

Takte sino nag edit nito? Bakit may slideshow ng mga pictures namen ni Celestine, shemay, ano yan tribute? Malilintikan talga sa akin ang nag edit nito. Tapos may video ni Celestine na nakakatawa at kausap ako, hindi man marinig ung pinag uusapan namen, pero alam ko tong pangyayaring to , ito ung first date namen, pero bakit may video nyan, may nagstalk kaya sa amin. Takte humanda talga akin ung mga tao na yan. Tapos nasa graduation speech na ako, naalala ko yan. Kahit na masakit paren ung closure namen ni Celestine, pinilit kong sabihin yan. At kung mapapansin puro lng ako nakatingin sa direksyon nya.Pumikit ako at pinakinggan ko ung speech ko

"Honored guests, members of the board of trustees, school administrators and faculty, parents, fellow graduates, and to all who are present day. GOOD Morning!

It seemed only yesterday when we first set foot on SRCA grounds, parang kalian lng diba? We were then curious, tense and bewildered children, well children talaga, just kidding, let me rephrase, bewildered young minds. But because of the in suitable intention, not only ours, but also of our parents, to study, to acquire more knowledge, we were left with no choice. And, look! Here we are now, in neatly arranged rows in donning white caps in a white cloak, ready to face greater magnitude or intensity of challenges, and about to enter a new horizon of life.

In this tender age of ours, we already knew that life is not the fabled bed of roses, it is difficult and it is a series of problems, and believe it or not that's the truth about life. Sabe nga nila " The hardest thing to accept is the truth", well kung ako ang tatanungin, YEAS! Mahirap talaga but we need to accept and it is necessary na kahit anong tanggi mo wala nang magawa kung hindi tanggapin . However even how hard it may be, we cannot do otherwise but to accept it, kagaya nga ng sinabi ko, more so, understand it, by doing it , we can then transcend to realty and nurture it in much clearer and better perspective, then life, Gods greatest gift of love, could be beautiful.

As we look back and reflect on the pieces of our pasts, we can recall the countless times that we were challenged, threatened and broken physically or emotionally in the times that we were stumbled and failed. There will always be flashbacks of instances when we were neglected, frowned, laughed-at and belittled. There were time that we were frightened to a certain things instead of mustering the needed courage, times that we were subdued by frustration and anxiety rather than acquiring strength. Itong mga sinababi ko marahil ito ung mga dark sides of life naten pero no matter how dark it is that's just life, on the other hand let us make that as an inspiration.

Indeed, there will be moments of trial and difficulty and the road on It will be rough and bumpy, but we should believe that sheer determination, the skill, the knowledge and the know-how relationship that we've learned in the hallowed classrooms of SRCA will provide us with the appropriate ideas and strength to overcome all of these trials, and ultimately make us strong, brave and courageous as we enter into the real world and all its challenges lying ahead.

To you dear Alma mater, the school administration, the faculty, the rest of the staffs from the vendor in the canteen, to the carpenter, the electrician, the janitors, to the guards and many more, we'd like to extend our sincerest appreciation for having molded us in every possible way. I know that you may think that we were not influence by you guys, but believe it or not, it has. No matter how big or small you contributed to our lives still it molded us, and thank you for that.

To our dear parents, we will offer our heartfelt thanks and gratitude for your undoubted sacrifices and unwavering patience, na alam kong umabot na sa punto na napapagailitan nyo kame, sorry for that parents, pero ganun po talaga kameng mga kabataan. Thank you for being there to fulfill the need of our ambitions spirit. Let it be our dreams are your dreams, and your dreams are our dreams. And together we hope that someday these dreams will be made to become reality with you dear parents.

To my fellow graduates, it is safe to say that WE DID IT. Some of us are fortunate and privileged enough to go straight to colleges, to those who are not or let say less fortunate, don't lose hope, because no matter how less fortunate you are, there and there will be an open opportunity for you guys, im not saying these because im valedictorian or so whatever, that I can go colleges for free, for me ,I just want you know that this is not the end of life, it doesn't mean that we graduated in high school that's the end, no!, marami pang pedeng mangyari. And let us not be contented of what we are right now. Dream big, walang masamang mangarap, libre na nga lng sulitin mo na, because that might serve as an inspiration to you guys. So let our goal be stated here and now, that we must not just stop by merely studying in college or having a degree, let not our success and accomplishment in life be measured only by having a career or a white-collar job, or leading a normal, moderate, and/or financially stable living. But I urge everyone to look around and be extra aware. Let the knowledge, talents and capabilities that we acquired and those to be acquired become the instrument that we could utilize. The youth is the tomorrow of nation, well im proud of it and you must too.May nagsabi sa akin Everything is changing, buhay, carreer, and even emotions, kaya sa pagbabago ng panahon, magpadaloy tayo sa agos ng pagbabago, para sa ikatutuwa at ikaliligaya naten at para mahanap naten ng kasagutan sa mga tanong naten at masabi naten sa huli na We did it. Bibihira lng maging bata , so be more knowledge seeker and used that to be a good and better you. Thank you, and congratulations."

Alam nyo ung meron pain sa boses ko habang sinasabi ko un, ganun un. Kahit na I tried to make things normal pero nandun paren un. Para tuloy akong ewan sa pag speech.nadala ako sa bandang huling speech ko nasa part na everything is changing, Takte ang galing kong magsalita haha. Wala akong hand outs yan ah, niready ko talaga ung sarili ko dyan. 

That was the most painful year of highschool. Nabigla ako sa video, napanganga ako kase ung last video un magkayakap kame ni Celestine sa graduation namen napaiyak ako nun, Hiningi ko un one last hug, niyakap rin ako ng mga kapatid nya. Namimis ko na siya. Ngayon na nasa maayos na ako na buhay papatunayan ko sa papa nya na karapat dapat ako sa anak nya. Tutuparin ko na ung pangako ko kay Celestine , because for the love of Celestine I will fight, for the love of Celestine I will take risk no matter what happens ,atleast I give my best for her to me back. For the love of Celestine, I will love her forever.