Loving You Is Easy

Chapter 30

"Do you want to go alone?" He said quietly.

"Yes." I nodded my head. "Please."

"Okay." He shook his head. "I'll be right here if you need me." He rubbed my hand.

I slowly got out of the car and made my way towards my grandma's grave. The last time I had visited her was right before we moved to Miami and there was so much I wanted to tell her.

"Hi Nana." I said as I approached her grave. "I brought you tulips; you're favorite." I gently set the bouquet down and sat next to it. "Miami has been amazing, I met some really nice people and I even met a guy. I barley met him so I don't know how things are going to work out. Did I mention that it's Austin Mahone?" I laughed. "Who would have known huh? The weather over there is so beautiful and we live somewhat close to the beach. I remember when we went to the beach here in Nevada and when we got in, the water was freezing!" My heart warmed just thinking about that. "God Nana I miss you so much, you don't even know." I brushed away the tears that were forming. "Everything is so different now with you gone. I need you in my life, you were the only thing that I had that reminded me of Dad. How is he by the way? I hope you guys are together looking down on me. Tell Dad that I miss him like crazy, tell him that there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of him." By now I was full on bawling my eyes out and I didn't even notice that Austin got off of the car.

"Hey hey, it's okay." He sat by my side and held me. "Baby you alright?"

"Yeah I'm fine." I wiped my eyes.

"You sure?" He asked once again.

"Yeah I just miss her like crazy." I sniffled.

"Is this your real grandmother?"

"Yeah." I nodded my head. "My dads mom."

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked.

"Let's go back to the car, it's getting pretty chilly out here." I said as I got up. I bent down and kissed my Nana's grave. "I love you." I whispered.

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"Is that fine?" Austin turned up the heater in his car.

"Yeah that's fine." We were still at the cemetery but we went back to his car cause it was starting to grow cold.

"So you still want to talk about it?" He asked.

I nodded my head and turned so that my body could face him. "Like I told you in the car, I'm adopted. When I was 4 years old, my father died." I cringed, I still couldn't talk about him after all these years without losing it. "And that was when my mom lost it, she couldn't face the fact that Dad died so she turned to other things to keep her from remembering. I was 6 years old when they took me from her. God I was so scared, I just wanted her. I didn't know what she was doing was wrong. I mean yeah when she was high, it would be scary but I got so use to seeing her like that. Thankfully it wasn't too long before the Smith's found me and decided to adopt me. And then when I was 10 I finally met my Nana, she didn't even know I existed and man was she so happy when we met for the first time." My heart warmed just thinking about her. "But unfortunately nobody lives forever and she died last summer. She died in her sleep and I'm glad that she went peacefully because she was one of the greatest woman I know and she didn't deserve any pain. As for my mom, last I heard of her she was doing time in Colorado. I was so young," I cried. "Everything happened so quick, I lost both my parents before I was a teenager and then I lost my grandma." I don't think I've ever cried this much in one day.

"Awh baby come here." Austin engulfed me in a huge hug. "I'm so sorry baby, I'm so sorry." He stroked my hair. "I'm here for you now, I'm here."

I pulled away from his embrace to wipe my tears again. "God I bet I look like a mess." I chuckled.

"You look as beautiful as ever." He caressed my check.

I leaned in to give him a kiss. "You're the best."

"Are you ready to leave?" He asked.

"Yeah." I sighed. "I think so."

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"Does it look like I was crying?" I asked Austin. We were now standing outside my front door.

"No, you look beautiful." He smiled at me.

"Good, I don't like when people see me upset." I puffed.

"I never want to see you cry." He lifted my chin up. "The only time I want to see you cry is because I told a stupid joke and you cried of laughter."

"Got it sir." I laughed as I leaned it for a kiss.

"You're too pretty to cry." He whispered against my lips before he attacked them.

I places both hands behind his neck while he wrapped his hands around my waist. The kiss didn't deepen, it wasn't sloppy, it wasn't intense, it was just perfect.

"God I could kiss you all day if I could." He said out of breath.

My breathing had accelerated from the kiss. "Let's get inside. They might start worrying."

Austin nodded in response and took my hand and headed inside of my house.

"I was about to call you!" Ashley said as we walked in.

"We were out running errands." I let go of Austin's hand.

"You guys took forever though." She continued.

"Ash we were only gone an hour." I laughed at her exaggeration.

"Come sit with me." Marissa patted the seat next to her.

I walked towards the couch and sat next to her. "I miss you Rizzy." I wrapped my arms around her neck.

"Yeah cause I haven't seen you all day baby." Rizzy pouted.

"We're still going out tonight, right?" I was planning on taking everyone out to a club that I use to go mostly every weekend when I lived in Nevada.

"Hell yes! Is that even a question? I'm gonna go tell the guys, come on Ash." She took Ashley's hand and took off upstairs.

"So we're going clubbing tonight?" Austin approached me with a smirk on his face.

"That's the plan." I smiled up at him. "All this crying made me tired." I yawned.

"Wanna go take a nap upstairs?" He reached for my hand.

I nodded my head yes. "We've got a longgggg night ahead of us."

"Oh yes you do." He grinned.