When I Saw You I Felt...

April Showers Bring May Flowers.

(April 26th) 

I was laying in the tulip field with Nathan, the bee's flying all around us. The weather was finally getting warmer, so the flowers were actually starting to bloom to their fullest. I was looking at the clouds, seeing what they looked like. I know that is childish but I still love doing it, even at 17. Nathan had his arm around me, as we both looked at the clouds. I felt a stabbing pain on my forearm. 

"Sh*t," I said as I stood up. 

"What happened?" Nathan asked. 

"Stupid, f*cking bee," I said as I walked away. Nathan laughed a little. 

"You're cute when your mad," Nathan said as he caught up to me but I ignored him. 

"I got the f*cking stinger out," I said as I threw it into the flowers. Nathan smiled, but I was mad. I know bees are good for the environment but I hate when they sting me. When I was little, one stung me while I was at a barbecue on the bottom of my foot and I had to limp while my cousin's played in the sprinklers. I felt a sprinkle of water on my head, and I looked up and the clouds had begun to turn an angry gray. 

"I am so done," I said as the ran began to grow heavier. I put my hands in the air and started walking to the car. Nathan walked behind me with the same smile on his face, I could feel it. 

When I got to the car, It was pouring. Nathan, got in the drivers seat. I did not feel like driving. Nathan pulled into the driveway of my house, we were both sopped in water. I was still pissed. 

I walked in the front door, to see my Dad and Lilith having coffee at the kitchen counter. I tried to turn around but my dad saw me. 

"There she is," My dad said with a fake smile. 

"Lilith is here to hang out with you but you are late." 

"Hang out?!" I yelled I was done. Nathan took his hands off of my shoulders and backed up.

"Why the f*ck would I hang out with this psychotic b*tch, Dad you are so  f*cking behind!" I continued yelling, I was fuming. 

"Lilith, why the f*ck are you here?!" I continued yelling.  

"Back away from my life, because you lied for years and then said you wanted revenge?!" 

"Well f*ck, I am the one who should want some, but I am not insane," I yelled as I ran upstairs Nathan followed me and saw me frantically packing a suitcase. I put most of my clothes, my laptop, and phone charger, and everything of mine from the bathroom. Nathan didn't say anything he was shocked at what had just happened. I rolled the suitcase down the stairs. 

"I'm living with mom!" I yelled as I slammed the front door. Nathan made the wise decision to walk ahead of me to get to the drivers seat. He drove straight to the apartment, I opened the door and went straight to Nathan's room. 

"What happened?" my mom asked. I could hear Nathan explain what happened. I laid down on Nathan's bed with my face in his pillows and I started crying. 

I don't know how long it had been but at some point Nathan gently sat next to me and put on hand gently on my back. "You're okay," he whispered. I heard my mom leave the apartment. 

About ten minutes later, I got up from my pillow depression. I looked at Nathan, my makeup was probably smudged a lot. Without saying anything, I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. "How could I be this ugly?" I accidently said out loud.  

Nathan opened the door, good thing I wasn't sh*ting. "You are not ugly," he said firmly as he wrapped his arms around me from behind. I looked at myself tiredly. I turned around and kissed him on the forehead. I headed back to his room. 

I was about to go cry again, but Nathan grabbed my hand and spun me around. He repeated what he has just said, "You are not ugly Destiny, you are the prettiest person I have ever seen," He said genuinely as he started kissing me, he moved from my lips to all over my face, even where my makeup had smudged. Everywhere he kissed me, I felt tingles.