9-18-22
Am I being selfish
Tell me
Am I being selfish
For feeling neglected
For wanting more help
Like your not trying
Like I'm doing everything
I try to let you do everything you want
Only exceptions being no pills and staying loyal
Am I being selfish
For being jealous
Of you gaming and hanging with your friends all day and night
While I work to jobs
To try to provide for us
Am I being selfish
For wanting your help just a little more
I don't mind working two jobs
Gives me something better to do
Than sit on my phone all day
While you game get high and hang with your friends
Keeps me occupied
But lately I've been feeling like I'm in the wrong
For feeling like your not doing enough
I feel like I'm the only one trying
I understand your feeling stuck
I understand you wanna game all day
I try to let you do whatever you want
I try not to get jealous
I try not to be selfish
But lately I feel like I'm being selfish
So I'll keep saying yes to whatever you wanna do
I'll keep trying to make you happy
I'll keep ignoring myself for you
And for some reason I feel like you've been talking to other girls
In ways you don't talk to me
I'm insecure
It's both your fault and mine
I trust you not to do anything
But then why do I get this feeling
I'm worried
I'm jealous
I'm selfish
But am I wrong to be feeling these things
When I put myself aside all the time
To make you happy and let you do what you want
Why am I so fukin boring
I wish I was more exciting so you'd wanna be with me more
Or work harder for us
I know you feel bad I know you do
Or is it all an act of manipulation
So I'll leave you alone
So tell me
Am I being selfish
