All for Naught (NOTHING SERIES #1)

Chapter 20

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I can still feel myself blushing with his words. Family planning?! Ngayon ay nahihiya na ako pero ang lakas ng loob kong magtanong sa kanya about pregnancy!

He chuckled before hugging me and tucking me to bed.

"Enjoy the present, Maeve. We'll get there." He whispered.

I bit my lips and nodded before hugging him tightly. He even groaned and due to playfulness, I went on top of him just so I could claim his lips again.

"Oh god," he whispered.

I giggled and continued giving him playful kisses. He lets me and sometimes kisses back.

Wala kaming tulog ng gabing iyon. We ate chips, even drunk alcohol! Kaya ng makarating sa condo ko ay pareho kaming bagsak sa higaan at nakatulog.

Magkatabi kaming natulog pero ng magising ako, wala na ito sa higaan. I looked around, even outside my room, pero wala ito.

Napakunot noo ako. It's so not him to not tell me if he's gonna leave already. He always waits for me to wake up.

I checked my phone if may message ba ito pero wala.

I sighed.

Maybe may work. Right. May work pala siya. I forgot.

Maghahapon na nung magising ako. There's already food na ikinangiti ko. He has always been thoughtful.

I busied myself the remaining hours he's not here kasi I know he'll be back at eleven. Pero lampas hatinggabi na ay wala pa rin ito. Hindi ko maiwasang magtaka at kabahan.

I started calling his phone to check on him.

What the hell, Cairo? Bakit hindi ka namamansin, huh? Asan ka ba? Or you're home? But still, he would've contacted me, right?

Hindi ako nakatulog ng gabing iyon. I was trying so hard to contact his phone that I think is turned off.

I'm also trying to stop my tears from falling. Naiiyak na ako sa kaba at takot.

Thoughts, bad ones, are interfering in my mind. Like what if he left me? What if he broke up with me? Paano kung ayaw niya na sakin kaya umalis na ito? Baka hindi niya na ako mahal. Basta niya na lang ako iniwan!

Halos isang linggo akong wala sa sarili. I kept on waiting for him sa condo but when I realized I don't even sleep anymore just to wait for him ay nag desisyon na akong lumabas. I don't even know why I've only decided to visit his home just now.

I fixed myself because I know I looked like a mess. My eyes are even puffy. Hindi ko alam kung sa kaiiyak ba o sa kulang na tulog.

Napasinghap ako nung makarating sa tapat ng bahay nito. Sobra akong kinakabahan.

I looked around before getting out of my car.

Walang tao dahil papagabi na. Even the kids aren't outside anymore. No people drinking on the side of the road. Sobrang kakaiba sa huli kong punta.

Especially his home.

It looked empty. Kinakabahan ako lalo.

I went inside their garden and knocked on their door. I hope someone's inside. I hope Cairo's inside. Sobrang natatakot na ako, sobrang kinakabahan. Hindi ko na alam ang iisipin.

As time passes by, hindi ko na naiwasan ang panunubig ng mata.

My heart is aching so bad. Sobrang sakit.

Is this a heart break?

Did you break my heart, Cairo?

How dare you?