A way to get Pregnant (COMPLETED)

Episode 20 *Breaking*

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To everyone again>>> I LOVE YOU ALL! HIndi nyo alam kung gaano ako kasaya dahil sa inyo. So thank you so much! God bless everyone :')

[Karen’s POV]

Ganito pala ang feeling kapag buntis ka, parang lahat ng bagay sa paligid mo ay masaya at makulay. But in counter to that, mabilis din akong makaramdam ng kalungkutan. Hindi ko naman talaga dapat nararamdamn un eh, bakit pa diba?

I started this journey with a crazy start. I plan on doing some hoodoo-audition for the search of my daddy-to-be of the child I badly wanted to have. I just did what I did because I want to have someone who will stay with me because I feel so alone.

I started to state facts that I’m not getting any younger and that scares me. I just ignore the fear that I always feel whenever I look at myself in the mirror and realize that there’s a possibility that I would grow old as an old maid with no one to take care of. That really scares me…

I wanted to have a family of my own that’s one of my goals in life, to create a wonderful family like the one I grow old with. I want to be just like my mom, a wife to my father and a mother to me. I would like to feel being a mom to my own child and now, I was so happy that God gives me the chance to become one.

Ang totoo talaga ay gusto ko lang mabuntis ako at wala na akong pakielam – dapat – dun sa kung sino man ang magiging ama ng anak ko. PERO…

Naiba ang sitwasyon. Ni hindi ko nga ikinonsidera na si Ej ang gusto kong maging ama ng anak ko dahil alam ko noon pa man na malabong magyari iyon. He was so precious to me at ayokong mawala sya sa buhay ko. Kaya lang mapaglaro talaga ang tadhana dahil kahit anong pilit kong itago ang nararamdamn ko sa kanya ay nakalabas pa rin iyon.

Naalangan ang pagiging magkaibigan namin at sa huli naging masaya naman ako sa naging resulta dahil nalaman ko sa sarili ko na mahal ko pala talaga sya. He told me he love me at hindi ako makapaniwala noon. It was all like a dream at hiniling ko na sana hindi na ako magising pa. But reality is where we really belong, siguro may nasabi ako, may nagawa para magawa kong panandaliang mapaniwalang mahal ako nito.