Heart of rainbows || Englot || Completed

Chapter 28: Waiting for you

Engfa's POV

Char justified herself and said, "He's one of my exes, and you know how my relationship went before this," She advised me to break up with him because he was toxic, fraudulent, and self-centred. She also mentioned other unpleasant words she could describe him with.

When she calmed down, I informed her that I was actually planning on doing so before she interrupted me. "Oh... I see...sorry," She pretended to scratch her head because she was embarrassed, probably for making a scene earlier.

Jumping onto the hurdle, I texted the guy straight away to break up even before we made it official and warned him not to see each other ever again. As I was filled with despair, I walked away from Char and left her alone because I felt humiliated that my relationship didn't work out AGAIN.

Why am I so dysfunctional when it comes to love? Maybe I am right about one thing —that I am meant to be alone for the rest of my life...

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Before I went back to my house, I went to a peaceful park where I could clear up my mind from my misery. Since it was night, there weren't many people, which comforted me a little. I could cry as hard as I could without being watched. 

I guess it's true when people say that love stories don't always have a happy ending. And no matter how sad the story went, it does count as a love story, judging by how well you perceive and learn from it. 

Though some people could recover well from ending a relationship, I don't necessarily fit the description because I grew up where my parents fell out of love and asked for a divorce. As a consequence, I became the victim in their relationship, where I had to be separated from my dad just because my mom wanted full custody of me when I was a child. 

When I had no contact with dad after the divorce, he became a total stranger to me when I set my mind that he was no longer my father. From then on, I knew that a person we used to be close to could become a person we go against just because we changed our view of that person. 

That's how things didn't work out between Tor and me because my perception towards him changed when I knew that he was faking himself, not revealing his true self. And I guess history repeats itself to me as well as it did back then with my parents. My relationship began to go south because I considered him a threat to my life and gradually hated his guts. 

After hours and hours of thinking back to my past, I concluded that maybe I was not ready to be in a relationship after all. Perhaps I should be better off being single for now because there's nothing wrong with it, and it doesn't invalidate my identity.

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A few hours later, I arrived at my house and saw someone looking worried in front of my yard. Char was anxiously moving back and forth before she stopped as she saw me making an appearance. 

"Where were you?" She went straight to my car and spoke about her concern for me.

"I was just getting some air at a park. Speaking of you, why are you here?" I turned to ask why Char was at my place at this late hour. 

"You weren't replying to my text... I thought something bad had happened to you, so I went to your place, but you weren't here. I was waiting for you...you know," She pouted with her cute face.

As much as I wanted to invite her over, I was too tired to talk, "Let's talk tomorrow...It's late already." 

But she insisted on letting herself into my house, "Fa~ please, I need to tell you something..." She practically begged me. 

"Alright, but please make it quick..." I softened my heart, although I was nervous about what she was about to say. 

Author's note: 

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