Heart of rainbows || Englot || Completed

Chapter 18: Better than before

Engfa's POV

While I finished drinking my green tea, I went downstairs to the dining room to see a variety of foods being served?! Are all the foods for me cause I don't think I can eat everything on the table?

I tried to pipe down and sit properly to imitate what Char had been doing in front of me. Indeed, she also behaved rather elegantly. Something had changed her, but one thing for sure was that Char was glowing from in and out. Then, she began to talk with me.

"How have you been doing, Fa?" She rested her chin with her hand, looking me in the eyes. Her voice softened compared to when we were in the bedroom, and I can't describe what I'm currently feeling.

"I am doing great..." I acted cool, but deep down, I was not fine at all. However, when I said that, she didn't smile at all and changed her seat next to me.

She holds my hand while caressing them slowly, "I beg to differ... I know that you're still heartbroken."

Hold on...how does she sense that I am heartbroken?

"Before you say something, I know everything about Thor," Char explained.

Feeling confused by her statement, I become quiet as I try to find the word to reply to her. But she hugged me and said, "I know you've broken up with Tor...I've been watching you from far."

Looking confused, I asked what she meant, and she replied, "For the past six months, I was living near you so that I could watch you from a distance while I tried to recover myself. And during those times, I stumbled upon Tor. When I asked how are you doing, he then told me everything happened between you two."

"But why would you do that? Why did you leave me first? I thought I was also losing my only best friend..." I sulked at what she put me through. 

From then on, she explained that she didn't want me to see her at her worst for the second time cause sometimes it can be too much for me to handle. "That's why I am trying my best to be the best version of myself and heal completely physically and mentally," Char convinced me. But I didn't buy her answer as I felt like she was trying to hide the real reason.

"And the best solution you could imagine was to disappear from my life?" I have mixed feelings about her revelation for leaving me.

At this point, I became vulnerable and emotional because when I needed her, she was not there by my side. Is this what friends are for?

"Please don't cry, babe... I just...I know I am at fault, but when I heard that Tor has been supportive for Win's behavior the whole time, I couldn't help but instinctively guard myself and run away from you because you're his girlfriend after all. I know you didn't know about his involvement at all, but at that point, I want to have a fresh start in my life...and that includes cutting ties with you. Yet, I've been missing you almost every day, and I felt very disturbed when I heard the news you were in pain. That's why I decided to meet you to give myself a chance to be happy again." She answered every doubt that was in my head.

As I came to terms with her reason, I began to eat the food silently as I know now that she misses me even though she's trying to get rid of me because her reaction was valid.

However, I wanted to make her pay for her action after leaving me alone by staying quiet throughout breakfast. Knowing how Char always confined her feelings, I predicted she wouldn't do anything to make me feel better. But I was wrong this time...

"Are you mad, Fa? I am so sorry... for leaving you. Give me another chance to make it up to you," I was flabbergasted by her forgiveness when suddenly she kept her knees on the ground.

I don't know what has changed, but the fact that she's more open and treated me sweeter than she usually was makes me not want to act up.

Just when I thought I could tease her, I stopped myself and accepted her apology because I didn't want to ruin the mood. Why the sudden change in behaviour, Char?

Author's note:
Writer's block at the moment as I am still figuring out how to end the story nicely🤓🤓. So, expect a slow update😖 and wish me luck! Also, another chapter, another song😉