Heart of rainbows || Englot || Completed

Chapter 27: Do you have to?

Engfa's POV

Actually, I lied to myself and Char. I vividly remembered everything, where I made a move on her and gave her kisses on her scars. The moment at that time was so strong that I couldn't delete it from my memories.

And because I was scared that the situation would make it awkward between us, I lied to her, and now she wanted me to find someone new. But that's the thing. I don't want just anyone because, as far as my past relationships went, I want to connect with the person emotionally, adding emotional security without fear of judgement, reprisal, or abuse.

But I am mad at her for not making me remember what happened that night. She could've at least told me the truth and done me a favour because now we've become distant, although it's entirely my fault.

Despite everything Char said, I knew that she meant good, and I took her advice by meeting with someone. With the courage I had created, I made an effort to date a guy from my colleague's circle of friends.

Surprisingly, the date I had with this guy went well than I'd imagined, and we will be going on our second date now to this fancy restaurant in town where it was well-known as a place to bring your special one.

As we were eating peacefully, he started a conversation with the thought of getting to know me better. Even so, I think I speak way too soon about this perfect date when suddenly I found a red flag in this guy's attitude. I tried to brush it away, but it's too major for me to ignore.

He described me as being the perfect girl that compliments his handsomeness. Then, he kept talking about his business success and popularity back in high school. Like boy, chill out!

There's so much of showing off and wanting to appear the perfect guy to everything-smart, popular, knowledgeable and good-looking. But soon, he realised that he never asked me a single question, so he tried to be interactive and kept his facial expression in check.

Now that I think of it, no wonder he always has the smirk whenever we talk during our last date as if he's extremely confident that he's doing well with the date. As much as I hoped this date would end well, I am no longer interested in conversing with him.

When I thought I could finally find my happiness, the chance to pursue someone right now crumpled to pieces, and I made a fool of myself. This is why I don't date random strangers.

"What more can I say to this guy?" I am trying my best to think about how to end things with him. However, when I excused myself to go to the bathroom, I saw Char with a beautiful woman. The girl looked like she came out of a magazine, pretty enough to shoot for a photo shoot as we speak.

"Wow!" I envied that Char found someone who's incredible, while I have an idiot who seems so full of himself.

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In the bathroom, I kept thinking of how to reject this guy nicely without offending him, but I guess it's best to just say it to him in person. Just when I went back to my table, I heard someone sternly scold my date out of nowhere.

"Don't even think of dating my best friend, you asshole!" As I looked up, I saw a furious Char protecting me from the selfish guy.

At this point, the crowds were now watching us like some telenovela because of how dramatic it got when my date verbally fought with her. To not make it worse, I forcefully brought Char out of the restaurant. Later, I asked her to stop being angry cause it scares me when she's mad.

"What's wrong with you? Do you have to be mad at my date?" I asked for clarification of her action.

Author's note:

Love is hard...