Heart of rainbows || Englot || Completed

Chapter 19: Take my hand

Engfa's POV

"By the way, you should eat more...you look like you're losing some weight," Char observed my appearance.

In fact, I have gotten thinner these past few months because I kept drowning myself with tons of work and no rest. And the saddest part is I noticed that but still chose to ignore it because I didn't bother to take care of my weight. 

"Yeah, I know... I've been busy with my job..." I looked down. "Enough about me. What've you been up to these days?" I asked her. 

Then, she summarises her life with her recovery and builds up her self-esteem. Honestly, confidence looks good on her because I could tell the time paid off with her looking confident and believing that she could go through every hardship without difficulty.

But there's one more thing that I am curious about. The girl who helps her disappears from the hospital. As far as I know, she doesn't have anyone, or maybe she has someone that I don't know of.

"So, who is the girl accompanying you out of the hospital?" My curiosity got the best of me.

From that moment, she becomes alert to what's going through her mind, keeping me waiting for her answer. Judging from her face, I could tell she was hesitant to say it without me getting the wrong idea, but I comforted her that I would not be mad or judge her for it. 

"She's my only friend. I told you who lived far away from here...Well, technically, that's what I labelled ourselves, but I had a relationship with her before this... so that would make her my ex-girlfriend?" Char tried to distinguish if I was okay with the new information that she had been in a relationship with a woman before. 

I mean, I had nothing against her, even though I am straight. It's just that I had never encountered a girl that likes the same gender. Even so, I still wanted her to feel accepted by her best friend, so I shrugged the topic off like it was nobody's business. 

A relief came out of her mouth, showing that she was grateful I was okay with her sexuality. But again, curiosity kills me when I ask her another question, "Why do you guys break up? Since I take that you're still friends with her, you had an amicable split?"

Soon after, she revealed that they both fell out of love. Sometimes things just don't work out, and most of the time, they treat each other more as a friend rather than a lover.  

"What about you? Have you ever been with a-" She was cut by me when I denied her straight away.

"Don't get me wrong! I'm not opposed to the idea...I am just not used to the concept," I tried to clarify myself as best as possible. 

After that, I continued telling her that I'd only been with men, and most of the time, the relationship didn't work out. I also expressed my exhaustion for having been heartbroken for the nth time. I dwelled on Char saying, "Maybe I should be single forever..."

"Hey, don't say it like that. You're a wonderful human being and a beautiful angel. It will only take a person who truly deserves to be with you and make you happy... I am sure your soulmate exists somewhere because everyone has someone destined to be with them for the rest of their life... I just knew that your life would get better after what you went through," She encouraged me with advice. 

At that point, I am thankful that Char always supports me in any way, no matter what, and that is what makes me not want to let go of her even after I get married to someone. 

Because I could rely on her like a sister...

Author's note: 

I just have to put the 'like a sister' thing cause that's how Char and Engfa described their relationship in real life 😂

The song below appropriately narrates today's chapter. Enjoy reading!