Heart of rainbows || Englot || Completed

Chapter 26: Storytime

Charlotte's POV

"How have you been doing?" Heidi asked curiously.

"Like usual...nothing's special happening in my life yet," I replied as I slid my finger on a glass cup of water to alleviate my cranky mood.

"Oh...I take that it didn't work out between you and your best friend since now you're doing a blind date, which you despise the most," She read me. 

I took a deep breath, knowing I had told her about Fa. And based on my side of the story, she deduced by herself that I actually had feelings towards Fa because her gaydar was never wrong. 

Flashback to the last six months

When I woke up from my surgery, I saw Fa looking scared for nearly losing me, as if she had almost lost someone dear to her. 

And no matter how she tried to hide her fear of me, the looks seemed familiar to what I did back when I lost my parents in the car accident. 

The feelings of hopelessness and intense sadness could become overwhelming if she continued to be by my side, watching me in pain every day. I also don't want to make her weep in the darkness and conceal her worry over me. 

Thus, I decided to prioritize my recovery first and come back stronger so I don't make the people I cared about feel despair. 

For that reason, I called Heidi to fetch me from the hospital after I told Fa to go home. I need to do this because I know I will never be the same again after the horrendous experience, changing how I see the world around me in a different light.

Putting pressure on myself to have a speedy recovery, I cried relentlessly as I had lost the ability to even rely on someone who really cared for me. 

...

After a while, Heidi became invested in knowing why I was leaving. So I told her, "I didn't want to worry my only best friend any further, as my pain would utterly change how she saw me—helpless and burdensome. If I stayed any longer, they would most likely be reminded of the bad memories instead of the good ones. And I don't want her to remember me this way, in my most vulnerable state..." 

"But if you let me see you in pain, why couldn't you let your best friend too? What's the difference? friends or best friends, we are still your friend anyway." She makes sense of what I said. 

"Because I deeply cared for her, and she has been there for me at my worst. She was someone... who emotionally understood me. But here's a thing, I don't want to burden her more because, somehow, when she suffers, it also affects me the same way." I responded.

...

Then, after a few months of regaining my health, I saw Tor intertwining his hand with a girl who was not Fa. With a sense of protectiveness over my best friend, I approached him, and he looked surprised to see me in a better condition.

"Hey, Charlotte! Nice to see you in great shape," He complimented me, unsure if he knew what had happened to me.

As I hinted to him secretly to have a quick chat, he asked the girl next to him to excuse us so we could talk. "Are you and Fa not together anymore?" I directed the question at him.

Then, he told me everything about the story, which I wished I didn't know. After hearing that, all I could think about was Fa's condition. 

The situation was just so sick! How could I leave her alone while she's dealing with her stuff with Tor?? I am so selfish and imprudent.

At present

That night, I had a good catch-up session with Heidi and voiced my frustration for being single. It's funny that we're still friends even though we broke up years ago. 

Although it's a shame, we didn't work out because that's how life was. It doesn't give you the people you want easily; at some point in your life, you will be bound to lose someone you need most.

Worse yet, my friendship with Fa became questionable recently after I told her to date someone else. I could tell we were slowly drifting apart, and I hated that. I told myself everything would be okay, but speaking of the angel, she was in the same restaurant with another guy who looked way too familiar to be my toxic ex before Win.

What the hell!

Author's note:

Sorry for including a lot of exes in this chapter, and don't forget to check out the song below😊