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First paragraph- scene from season 9 episode 7 of Chicago P.D. The rest of the chapter was written by me "Okay you need to talk to me." Hailey said to Jay as soon as they got into the observation room. "Hailey, I don't wanna do this right now." He said not wanting to talk to her at the moment, he wasn't in the mood to have a conversation. "No. We're not doing that anymore. It's not working. You're angry Jay i get that, you should be but you're ignoring me you're sniping at Voight, it's-it's the wrong way to handle this?" Hailey ranted, being stern with him, she wanted him to talk to her, she was sick of them not being 100% open and honest with each other about certain things. "Is that what you think? can I not have a real argument against him?I got to back him all the time because that's what you do?" Jay said questioning her, he was getting frustrated. "No, I don't. And just because I don't back you when you're challenging him, doesn't mean I'm taking his side, I make my own choices Jay. No one controls me. Not him and not you. I made my own choices that night. I showed up there, but I'm still me. You're acting like I'm not. You barely talk to Me. I- I don't know what to do anymore." Hailey said standing up for herself, her voice breaking towards the end of what she was saying due to the fact she was feeling upset about the state of their relationship at the moment and everything that had been going on. "I don't know either, but I am doing the best that I can with it Hailey. Right now this is the best that I got" Jay said looking at her, then walking past her and leaving the room.
Hailey was left in the interrogation room by herself on the verge of tears. All these different thoughts and emotions going through her head. She began to think about Jay, she didn't want to loose him and she thinks she's going to after the argument they just had, she didn't like the way he walked out either that made her feel even worse than she already did. She began to breakdown, all the fears she was feeling were getting too much and tears had started running down her face, she cried and she couldn't seem to stop, her cries turned into sobs and her chest felt tight, she slid down the wall and hugged her knees struggling to catch her breath as the tears kept coming.
Trudy had been dropping off papers to Voight and when she was on her way back downstairs she stopped for a minute as she heard what sounded like someone crying, she grew concerned and went over to the interrogation room as that's where the noise was coming from. The sight she seen when she walked in made her concern grow 10 times more as she saw Hailey sat on the floor uncontrollably crying. Trudy approached her slowly not wanting to startle her "Hailey." At the sound of Trudys voice Hailey looked up noticing her, Trudy saw Haileys puffy red eyes and tear stained cheeks, she knew something had happened or something was going on. "What's the matter?" Trudy questioned sitting down so she was sat on the floor opposite Hailey. Hailey couldn't get any words out through her sobs. "Hailey look at me." Trudy said placing her hands on Haileys shoulders. "You need to try calm yourself down, being this worked up isn't good for you." Hailey looked at Trudy. "Come on take a deep breath in with me." She said, Hailey attempted to take a deep breath in but ended up coughing because she was in such a state. Trudy spent around 10 minutes trying to calm Hailey down but nothing seemed to work, deep breaths in and out didn't work, rubbing her back didn't work and trying to distract her so her mind would go onto something else didn't work either. "Jay, I need Jay." Was all Hailey said as her sobbing continued. Trudy went and got a handful of tissues and handed them to Hailey then she went and got Jay and told him what had happened and how Hailey was saying his name and she needed him.
Jay went straight to the observation room as soon as Trudy told him what had happened. He walked over to Hailey and kneeled down so he was level with her. The sight of her broke his heart. He opened his arms and Hailey fell into them. He positioned her head so her ear was against his chest. "Focus on my heartbeat, you're okay, everything's okay." He said rubbing her back with one of his hands and using his other hand to run his fingers through her hair. The steadiness of Jays heartbeat and his gentle tone when he said comforting things along with him physically comforting her was enough to calm her down after a while. Her crying had stopped and her breathing had started to regulate itself again. Jay had took hold of her hands and got her to take a few deep breaths with him to fully calm her, after she had stopped crying and he knew she was calm he spoke. "Hailey, I'm sorry I'm so so sorry. For everything that's went on lately. For the way I've acted towards you, treated you and for how I've handled all the different situations that have been going on. You don't deserve to be treated like that and you don't deserve a hard time. I want to make you smile and laugh and feel loved, not cause you any pain or tears of sadness. I really am so sorry." Jay said still holding her hands and rubbing his thumbs over her knuckles. "Thank you for apologising, I know you don't mean to cause me any upset but I just hate how things have been between us recently and I want us to talk and sort it out not shut each other out and stop being honest with each other." Hailey said looking into his eyes a hint of desperation in her voice. "I hate how things have been as well. I promise I'm going to stop shutting you out also please know that I know you are more than capable of making your own decisions and I don't see you as a bad person for any decisions you have made because I know you're still you and you're still the same person that I fell in love with and if I've ever made you feel like I feel any different about you recently then I'm sorry. I love you so much." Jay said getting his hands and cupping haileys face in them. "I thought I was gonna loose you, I'd convinced myself I had." Hailey said her eyes beginning to brim with tears. "Hey,shh it's okay, you're not going to loose me, that's not going to happen so you don't need to worry. We will find a way to get through this and everything will be alright." He said placing a kiss on her forehead and holding her in his arms.
