Autumn Showers

55- The one with Scarlett's mini take over

Scarlett

I couldn't tell if it was the pregnancy or my nerves, but I feel as if I'm going be violently sick any minute. Rocky would be here any second and I know when he arrives that I'm going to be faced with some uncomfortable truths.

I couldn't help but feel guilty, I never meant for this to happen. I took the plan b, and I made sure that I took it in the right amount of time, so it would be as effective as possible. I know logically that it takes two to tango but even though I didn't know Rocky, I don't want my careless choices to affect his hopes and dreams.

Upon finding out about my pregnancy, I couldn't help but be hit with an overwhelming feeling of grief. The grief with knowing that my mom won't ever be there to hold my hand as I give birth or attend my scans with me.

She will never get to meet my child, her grandbaby.

Tears prickle the corner of my eyes at the thought even though I was only small when she passed, I could still faintly remember her smile. It was so beautiful it hurt; I've always longed to be that beautiful.

My dad would always tell me that she was the kindest soul you could ever meet but unfortunately, she wasn't able to be kind to herself. And ever since I found this out, I vowed to myself that I would always have the courage to be kind.

My head snaps up when a shadow covers the table I was sat at, my heart stops when I see Rocky towering over me. He was extremely handsome there was no denying that. I truly believed that he had the kind of beauty that even a blind man couldn't miss. But there was something about his eyes that drew me in, they were clouded, almost troubled.

Luke always tells me that I have a habit of trying to look for people's problems, so that I'm able to fix them. And to some extent that's true, all I wanted was to be able to help people even if it meant hurting me in the process.

'Scarlett?'

My cheeks flush brightly as I snap away from my thoughts, 'H-Hi, sorry I was away in dreamland!'

He nods stiffly before sitting down across from me, I couldn't help but be glad that he chose a coffee-shop to meet at, it somehow made this exchange less intimate.

'Look, I'm really sorry if I sound like a dick but I've had a lot of girls in the past pretend to be pregnant with my baby when they realise that I'm short-listed to be a UFC fighter. Are you sure that it's mine?'

I choke on my own spit as I blink rapidly, 'P-Pardon? I-I didn't even know that you where short-listed, heck! I barely even know what the UFC is! B-But trust me, you are the father.'

His chocolate brown eyes study my face intently probably trying to gage whether I was telling the truth which makes panic bubble in my stomach, nausea hits me again at a full-blown force.

'I-I promise, I would never lie about anything like that!'

He sighs loudly, 'I believe you.'

'L-Look, I would never force you to do anything, it's completely up to you whether you want to be involved or if you don't. E-Even if you decide that you don't want to be involved right now and then change your mind in years to come. I-I would never deny my child the opportunity to get to know their father.'

His eyebrows knit together, 'You're a real dumbass, you know that? If a dad decides that they don't want to be involved in their kid's life from the start, then they shouldn't deserve to be in any of it.'

My eyes widen considerably, 'D-Does that mean that you want to be involved? I-I don't know if I'm just taking this out of context because I'll be honest, my mind is all over the place! And usually when my mind is all over the place, I smoke but obviously right now I can't.'