Autumn Showers

35- The one with girl talk

I stroll into Scarlett's room with a nervous smile on my face, she had rung me eight times this morning insisting that I came round for much needed girl talk. My smile drops when I notice mascara tracks down her face.

'Scar?' I ask quietly as I sit on the edge of her bed.

She lets out a small whimper, 'I feel like I've messed everything up!'

'W-What, why?'

The pink-haired girl shrugs, 'I-I just don't think that you should sleep with a friend.'

My eyes narrow, 'Has Toby said something? Do I need to kick his ass?'

She shakes her head quickly, 'T-That's the issue, he's said nothing! We both agreed that we wouldn't talk about it again.'

My head tilts, 'So, you want to talk about it?'

'I-I don't know! I just feel so confused!' She cries out before she grabs a pillow from her head and buries her head into it.

'Okay, let's try to figure this out.' I say as I awkwardly pat her back.

Fuck, I'm really not good at this comforting shit.

Scarlett's head snaps up, 'I-I'm worried that I like him!'

Oh fuck.

Poor Sammy.

Toby is really making his way through the group.

'Are you sure you are not just confused because you are vulnerable, and he gave you the comfort you needed?' I ask softly.

'I-I thought that too, I really did. I don't want to feel like this, but now when I see him there's butterflies in my stomach!'

I bit my lip, 'Have you thought about talking to him about all of this?'

'I-I can't, what if I ruin our friendship?'

I shrug as confliction runs through my veins, 'Or you might end up getting everything that you want?'

I really didn't want to encourage Scarlett to chase her heart because that's only going to end up hurting Sammy. But I also couldn't watch my best friend cry.

Either way, I feel fucking awful.

'H-He was so kind to me, Autie!' She murmurs, 'He made me feel as if I was the only girl in the entire world.'

'H-He did?'

'Yeah, you've had boyfriends before, you know what it's like when they kiss you with such passion but tenderness that you literally feel on fire and safe at the same time.'

'I-I've never had a boyfriend who makes me feel that way before.'

She frowns, 'Y-You haven't?'

I inhale a sharp breath, 'N-No, but I know if I found someone who made me feel like that, I probably wouldn't want to let them get away.'

The pink-haired girl chews the inside of her cheek, 'I-I don't want to let this get away.'

'Look, putting your feelings out there can be so fucking scary. I get that, you don't know if the person is going to feel the same way. But I trust you, it's going to feel a lot fucking worse when you look back and regret never taking that chance.'

I really hope Sammy forgives me for this.

'T-Thanks Autie.' She says softly as she reaches forward and squeezes my hand.

'You don't need to thank me, I'm always here for you.'

Scarlett nods as sits up, 'Since, we are already talking about boys, please can you talk to me about what's going on with you and my brother?'