Clubhouse

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Kentrell Desean
"Shhh it's okay." I said rocking K'Amoura.

She had been crying for the past 20 minutes. I had brought her down stairs so she wouldn't wake Tahani. She was so tired and I wanted to give her a break.

"I promise if you be quiet I'll feed you some chicken." I said trying to give her , her bottle. "Come on please?"

I didn't know what to do. I didn't wanna wake Tahani. It's been a rough couple of weeks. She was constantly up and down. I helped out as best I could ,but she was always exhausted. Jai was now a month old. I touched her forehead and she wasn't warm.

"Give her here." I heard Tahani say behind me.

"Go back to bed I got it mamas." I said bouncing her in my arms.

"It's okay." Tahani said grabbing her from me. "It's time for her to feed anyway."

"I was trying to let you sleep baby." I said.

"Thank you ,but I'm a mom. If you can't get her to stop crying wake me up." She said pulling out her titty and putting Jai on it.

"Okay." I said nodding. "You hungry?"

"Yes." She said.

"Okay. I got some chicken." I said . "You want mashed potatoes and red beans on the side?"

"Yes please." She said looking up smiling.

"How are you?" I asked putting her food on the plate putting it in the microwave.

"What you mean?" She asked.

"Like mentally. I know having a baby can be a lot." I said.

"I'm okay. I have times when I wanna pull my hair out ,but that's normal. How are you?" She asked.

"Jania won't answer my calls. I want Kacey,but she just won't even text me back." I said pulling her food out the microwave getting her a spoon and a paper towel sitting her plate down.

"Do you want me to reach out to her?" She asked.

"Nah nah it's cool." I said knowing it wasn't.

"I mean if you want your son you should be able to get him. I'm sure she's just busy though." Tahani said eating some of her mashed potatoes.

"Yeah. She been busy for a month." I said. "She don't even been hosting no more. All she do is be with her boyfriend so ion see how that's busy."

"Baby don't get upset. I'll text her." She said.

I just nodded wanting to leave the conversation alone. I'm irritated and wanted to see my child. Then they run to social media like I don't be wanting my kids or I don't be tryna get them. It ain't to much I can do with this bracelet on.

"Have you talked to TeeLee?" I asked.

"Have I? My girl ain't stopped calling checking on me." She said laughing.

"She luh you fr." I said sitting down next to her.

"I know and I love her more." She said biting a piece of chicken.

"You feel like ion get my kids enough?" I asked looking at her. If anything she gone be honest.

"I feel like you could get them more. I know they are in school. I know some of them have other siblings." She said.

"So is it my fault?" I asked.

"Yes it is because you can ask Sherhonda to contact their moms to get them for you. Then again if they want you to get them or need a break they need to be contacting Sherhonda or hell even me." She said.