Behind the Scenes

This is 30

Lupe Pov

It is the weekend of my birthday the big 30, I knew all of them were up to something always whispering anytime I would leave the room. Especially when my sister-in-law decided for her, her sister and me to go shopping. Let me tell you this I had never been one to want to shop, my outfits usually consist of  jeans, a t-shirt, maybe a button down and usually a variety of shoes.

"Are you ready to go Lupita?" my sister in law said as she came into the clan house that had finally been finished when we came back from the Florida trip. "Follow me to my room" I said as I lead her towards my room. All of us had moved into the house right after we got back from the trip to Florida, by all of us I mean Queen, Nolan, Trevor, Lucky, and I. Lily had decided to head back to her hometown until she decided on what she actually wanted to do, she was still going to be editing for us.

If you are wondering how we had the whole house set up, everyone in the clan had the top floor of the house, which was nice when I just needed to decompress from everyone I could head off to my area of the house. Which consist of my room, streaming room, makeshift music studio, plus a few other rooms that I had completely off limits.

Besides everyone else seemed to either enjoy staying in the main streaming/editing room or having it in their room, which definitely helped with having to use less rooms.

"Not bad of a house," My sister-in-law said as she continued to follow me, "It really is something to get used to, you know me not really used to living with so many others, but at least I can have this whole back area to myself." I said as we reached my room going to grab my wallet.

"That's is true, you and your whole not liking to be touched thing" She said laughing. "OK, now I feel judged by you" I said laughing when I see her looking around and going to one of the 3 doors in my room. "You really haven't told any of them, have you?" She said as she messed with the knob.

"Honestly, no few people know. You remember what happen before changes how people see you." I said as she looked over at me, "Ya but you shouldn't have to hi-" she started saying before her phone started going off. "My sister is ready for us to go pick her up." she said as she let go of the door knob and heads to leave.

"OK," I say as I grab my camera  "and besides I will tell them eventually"

Hailee Pov

After I had been able to spend time with Niall, this last September had been nice but things hadn't really changed. We told each other that we were going to be spending more time with each other, which in turn was a lot less time, text, everything.

Of course my schedule was getting busier, but at least I tried to make it work with him, it always looked liked he had checked out at this point. It also really didn't help the fact there was even more photos of him with another girl, and we couldn't even come back from that, after what he did. I didn't want to hear his explanation anymore, it felt like more of what he called his "truths", were just lies and nothing more.

"Hailee!" I heard someone shout as I looked up and saw my mom looking at me from the kitchen, "Sorry mom were you saying something?" I said as I got up from the couch.

"Sorry sweetheart I just wanted to know if you wanted something to eat, but I could see that you were so deep in thought" She said as stood by the kitchen island watching me closely. "Sorry just thinking about the past month, I mean I do still love him, but everything around him felt like a lie. He cheated on me and I don't even understand why?" I said as I walked over to her trying to hold back my tears. "These thoughts keep coming across my mind like...Was I not good enough for him?.....Was I not enough?"

"Sweetheart you can't put that on you, you are good enough, he is going to realize it way too late. All that matters is that you actually give yourself time to heal, that part is going to take time for it to completely heal." She said as she hugged me tightly.