I only drink to get drunk.
I felt I stepped into quick sand &
watched how fast my life sunk.All you do is destroy, all that was built.
For you, I gave up me &
all those parts of myself, I killed.Who am I now? What will I become?
I ask myself these questions until the
lonely begins to meet the numb.My whole life has been a shipwreck.
My mental stability's always tested.
I fight, I scream, my mind never feels rested.Sitting silently most days,
the only thing to break
through the silence is music.
Trying to figure out how in my life
I've become just basic.A lie is a lie and a cheat is a cheat.
There's not a moment where those two never meet.
You tried to hide all those within my crazy.
I don't even like who I've been latelyYou drilled negative into my head
Until I felt worthless, like I was better off dead.
You thought you broke me that I had been beat.
I felt so cowardly within all my defeat.I may have left, but you still won.
Too many times I cried looking at that gun.
Yet, I walked away even with all that I know
I live day to day still putting on a show.But eventually the night turns into day.
And I hope for something to show me the way.Not one of my finest moments,
but I made it through to a much lesser hell.
So, there is that...
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PoetryPoetry.. For the broken, misguided, mistreated, abused & sometimes ...in the mood.