Weight of Words

Sleepless

Sleep doesn't come easy to me
and when it does, I fight to stay awake.
The nightmares that haunt me,
are so much more than I can take.

I have flash backs of when
everything I ever loved all just fell apart.
I soon learned the role I played
was of the fool right from the very start.

I've had this vision so many times,
I could write it line per line.

I can't even cry anymore.
I don't run straight for the alcohol
to numb my pain, like I always did before.

No, I just associate you with "The Raven"

I am the distraught lover mournful.
& you, you are a never-ending reminder
of a love that was ever so scornful.