❦︎ Do You Still Love Me? ❦︎

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RAENI

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RAENI

"What will you wear!?" I panicked for Lorelai because she wasn't as panicked. She was going to meet the love of her life but she was more worried about old men pulling out of a minor deal. I didn't know whether to be impressed or annoyed.

I wouldn't be entirely annoyed had she not threatened to not go to the event. I was almost going to call Ares and tell him but I controlled myself and pretended like she didn't say what she said.

"Lory, do you even know the gravity of your situation?" I whisper shouted at her because everyone was running around in the office getting this and that for her.

"I don't care." She didn't even glance up at me, showing that she didn't care but I noticed her typing a bit faster, rushing through the other things. "It doesn't matter."

In that moment, something in me switched. I don't know what it was but it was huge. It was like a small weight was lifted but it felt like a huge difference. I've always been carrying with me all of Lorelais...I don't want to say problems but something close to that. But standing infront of Lorelai, watching her not care as much as I do for something that's happening to her, it made me withdraw.

I was annoying her and I could see it but I just wouldn't stop. The realization made me sit down and keep quiet. I haven't had a switch that intense since I was a child. Lory looked up at me, frowned her pretty eyebrows and looked back down to her computer. I grabbed the papers she gave to me an hour ago and I left. Without another word.

I cursed myself as soon as I stepped into my office. I was annoying. I was persistent and I was working on her nerves like the seven dwarfs working on a mine. I couldn't shut up, I just kept talking and I just started thinking that Lorelai was done with me.

I remember my thoughts running all over the place, I remember thinking that me talking so much was a problem that I should stop. I wanted to know when to stop. I knew that my talking would get me in more trouble as it already did.

The switch was something I will never forget.

I stayed in my office and did my work. I only spoke when spoken to. I kept quiet for the rest of the day. I had only small things to do before I left. I went home, after not talking to Derek. It's been a couple of hours since our fight. We haven't called each other, we haven't seen each other. I went home, earlier that day, to grab some clothes to wear and he was not there. Probably at work. Definetly at work. I don't know what I was expecting but I wasn't expecting an empty house.

Now I have to go back.

I can't stay with Lorelai again because she'll become suspicious and ask questions I don't want to answer. She'll know something went down. I just don't want to burden her anymore than I already have. My mouth moving more times than a breath a day is enough for her. She wouldn't even understand because she isn't married and doesn't love someone the way I loved Derek.

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