Aboard the Black Swan | P.JM |

Stay

A/N: I'M ALIIIIIIIIIIIVVVEEEEEEE! Sorry for being ded for so long! :((( I had too much school work and I still do but I made some time to write this lil piece. It's a bit shorter than usual but I hope you like it! Be sure to read the previous chapter before this since it's been a while and this is a continuation of "Alone". Hapie reading! <3

Y/N POV

I was wolfing down my dinner. I couldn't help it, I had been starving for the past 12 hours....maybe more...I was given something on The Singularity but that was obviously not enough to fill my stomach. I hurriedly ate everything as the four men surrounding me sat in silence, observing me as if I was a precious gem that could be taken away at any time. I guess I wasn't the only one anxious about it. But no matter what my heart wished for my head refused to accept that maybe they actually cared for the pitiful replacement that is me.

"Hey, let's not creepily stare it might make her uncomfortable...let's eat.." Captain Jin said quietly and the sound of more than one pair of cutlery started filling the room. It was still awfully quiet since everyone would usually be chatting. I was just about to finish my food when Captain Park pushed a glass of water over to me. I looked up at him, probably looking like a monster with my bad hair and food crumbs all over my mouth.

"You lost a lot of water. Drink up," he said and went back to eating. I was silent, but took the glass of water and gulped it down anyway. I was still having mixed feelings about the whole replacement thing. Some part of me wants to accept the fact and move on, to enjoy my life for as long as I can until I get discarded. Some part of me wants to leave this all behind and go back to how my life once was. But a stronger part of me wants to stay and prove to everyone I'm worthy of my position.

I sat there, spacing out and lost in my thoughts until I heard someone clear their throat. I looked up and everyone was staring at me.

"Sorry? Did you ask me something?" I asked doubtfully. They looked at each other and shared a look. They all seemed to look at Captain Park and he gave them a slight nod. Suddenly Captain Suga got up and started taking everyone's plates.

"It's my turn to do the dishes today." he declared and left the room for the kitchen. I sat in my chair quietly.

"I'll go help him." Captain Jin said and followed the younger man into the kitchen. Jungkook stood up beside me.

"I have to check something with Captain RM. I'll be back in five minutes, okay?" He said and sought himself out of the Main House. The only ones left were me and Captain Park. I heard him softly sigh.

"Alright. Now I need you to be honest with me on this." He said. I was confused and slightly startled by his words but I nodded regardless.

"I know this might hurt you but I need you to tell me everything that happened. From the beginning." He said, looking at me with clear eyes. He knows something was off between me and the Singularity's Captain. I assumed neither he nor his first mate had filled in those details. Captain Park and Captain Kim weren't really on good terms now either. That incident was what led to Soobin and me wandering off on our own and in the end, getting kidnapped.

I really didn't want to, for fear that I would further ruin the bond between the two friends and that I might have to reveal my inner emotions. I looked at Captain Park again. His expression did not falter and his eyes were determined. They had a softness to them as well. I fidgeted with my hands and kept silent for a good minute. He looked like he was going to give up when my mouth started moving on its own.

I started from the moment I knew the real meaning behind Taehyung's Captaincy. I told him about the moment we left. I told him all about the progress I made as a part of the crew. Once I started I couldn't stop. It all poured out unwillingly like my mouth had a mind of its own. Then came the tricky part. I said the exact same words he had said to me.

"I don't remember you being in the position to tell me what to do"

"Don't talk about him like you know him! Or me!"

"You are the reason we even had an argument!"

"I really don't like you crossing your limits"

"So know your place, Heather!"

I let out a shaky breath, pushing back the feeling of pain from those words. The entire room was silent again except for the faint sound of cutlery being washed in the kitchen. I looked up to see Captain Park's reaction. I wish I hadn't.

His face was as still as ever but his eyes were neither kind nor ice cold like I had seen them. These eyes...I had never seen them before. They were widened and his eyebrows were raised. I've seen him be annoyed but this time...

This time he was angry. I don't know whether it was because I did cross my limits by asking Taehyung about the incident or because of how Taehyung had spoken for him. His breathing was a little heavier than before and he seemed to struggle to contain his emotions.

"He said what now...?" He whispered. It was scary, the way he said those words. I wasn't sure about which part he meant but I was reluctant to ask.

"He told you to...know your place?" he whispered again. He scoffed and chuckled. It was anything but funny when he has scary-looking eyes like this. He turned his gaze to the table. "The audacity of that bastard..." He mumbled and suddenly stood up. But before he could make another move my body shot up despite the pain in my leg and caught his arm.

"Don't go!" was the first thing that I said. I was meaning to say something related to the argument or that it's no use fighting anymore but...the first thing I wanted was for him to stay. I don't even know why he got angry because of me. I don't like this. I was supposed to stay away from those 7. But why do I keep circling and ending up with them?!

Despite my intentions right now, I didn't want to be alone. It was ironic because I had been alone for 15 years and didn't complain. I never made any attachments because I knew I would experience pain when I had to let go of them. Or if they simply left. I was of no significance and I knew that. But still...still! The way these people care for me and treat me gives me a tiny flame of hope that maybe...maybe I could be of importance. Maybe I can finally make attachments without pain. Maybe I can finally...love.

Hearing that I was of little significance later when I finally believed in having a family shattered me and what little hope I had. I had made the attachment and now I have to let go. I have to be selfish to survive. But I wanted to stay at the same time.

I wanted to stay and see more of this incredible feeling of being loved and cared for. I have people here that still care. Why do I have to leave just because one person didn't accept me? I didn't just leave after Jungkook insulted me. I proved to him that I was capable. Why am I any different now? Who cares if there was someone before me? I would learn and prove to them that I am better.

I finally got a chance at having a happy life. I am not letting this chance go to waste.

The anger in Captain Park's eyes had vanished. In its place were surprise and a soft look of sympathy. His body relaxed and he simply stood there. I gripped his shirt sleeve tighter and whispered " Please stay, Jimin."

He blew out a breath. "Fine." He whispered. He sat back down with me and held my hand in between both of his.

"I'll stay."