𝗦𝗢𝗨𝗞𝗢𝗞𝗨 𝗦𝗛𝗢𝗧𝗦

Inevitable

"Chuuya. Please don't go there." His voice is strained, a tone that's never been in his words.

Chuuya laughs, "Since when did you care, idiot mackerel?" He walks into the arms of death like a lost child. Again and again.

His arms reaches out to hold Chuuya back, because that's what he's been doing their whole lives. His hand clenches on nothingness, nails digging into his skin.

Even after all these times he's seen Chuuya being cut down, he's still never brave enough to keep Chuuya by his side, is he?

"It's a suicide mission. You'll die."

"About time, don't you think?"

"And here I thought I was the suicidal one in this partnership."

"There is no such thing as a partnership between us."

"Didn't you use Corruption because you trusted me?"

"Trusted. Not anymore."

"Don't go. No, you can't— Chuuya!"

"You're always the one with one foot out the door, the one who always leaves first. It's funny how the tables have turned."

"At least I'm humane enough to say goodbye."

"Please stay."

"You're a hypocrite."

"And you, are going to die."

"How very selfish of you to not let me die when it's your passion to do so yourself."

"I'm selfish and greedy, I've heard it all before. So please, please indulge my greed one more time."

"I can handle never seeing your face ever again. But you know I'll kill myself the second you die."

"It'd be a beautiful double suicide then, don't you think, Dazai?"

"I've seen you die more times than I can count. Chuuya, please listen."

"Dying, huh? I'm prepared for that outcome."

"You can't willingly die like this."

"It's my destiny to die in a fight, in all my blazing glory. Don't try and stop it now, Dazai."

"Don't go."

"Sorry."

When he sees Chuuya's bleeding body again, when his cheek is in his palm once again, he doesn't think he can keep doing this again. He thinks he'll lose him forever.

He never did make a true effort to keep him, did he?

He's a coward.

He takes the knife that he's seen lodged in Chuuya's body so many times as he holds it up to his throat. A tear slips down his face when he sees Chuuya's horrified face as he stabs it into his own neck.

There is no hope, no happy ending for Soukoku.

There is no universe that exists that gives them closure.

Hand in unlovable hand, they'll die together.

Lonely, painfully and unfulfillingly.

Their death, the same as their lives.