Letters to Love

Letter 6

Hey Love,

Going out with my friends tonight because I haven't had a single moment to spend with them in over three months. We're just going out bar hopping I guess, not really my thing but I think it'll be fun for the most part. We'll see how it goes, I'll write about it when I get back home obviously. See you later :) -P ♡

Everything about last night was crazy, I mean everything. As soon as everybody got to my apartment it was pure chaos. It was Peyton, Saige, Saige's friend Jessie, Clarissa and Vincent (they've been together since like 5th grade), and me. All of us were getting ready to go in my room which was already crowded with furniture and my keyboard that sits under the window next to my bed. Jessie was trying to roll while Peyton and Saige were drunkenly screaming along to their pregame playlist. Clarissa and Vincent were arguing in the hallway as always as I was trying to figure out what to wear, so many things were happening at once but honestly it was fun. As soon as we got out the door everybody crammed into my car Vincent on Clarissas lap with Peyton and Saige sitting next to them. Jessie and I were the only sober ones so I drove while they sat in the passenger seat. I will note that Jessie is quite attractive. We got to the little strip of bars and clubs halfway across town, Peyton, Saige, Clarissa and Vincent went inside while Jessie and I smoked in the car. We talked for a bit as the joint burned down to nothing but a filter had some laughs then went inside to find everybody else twice as drunk as what they were when they got out of the car. Peyton was already throwing up in a trashcan, and Saige was holding his hair back. Clarissa and Vincent were dancing as couples do. Jessie and I were pretty much there just to hang out and babysit since we're the only ones who don't drink. He asked me to dance after a little while after we got bored of playing pool so we found the group again and jumped around the crammed sardine can of a dance floor until I got too hot and dragged Jessie back to the sidelines. We made sure everybody was alright before we decided to go back to the car and smoke another one, we told them to text us when they went to the next bar and we would meet them over there. Now earlier I noted that Jessie was quite attractive, this is important. I'm not foreshadowing anything. This is a diary after all for nobody but myself to read, so for the sake of being transparent I will say yes, Love, he thought I was attractive too and that joint ended in the backseat of my car. I needed a little fun tonight and high sex is, in fact, the best sex. The night ended soon after because the other four were too drunk to function so Jessie and I had to literally drag everybody up the flight of stairs to my apartment and onto a pile of blankets on my living room floor. Jessie and I smoked one more time before he went to bed on the beanbag in the corner of my room (where they are currently still asleep while I'm writing this). I guess I'm gonna wake him up and make him cook breakfast for everybody with me because I refuse to deal with hung-over Peyton and Saige by myself. I think I have muffins, eggs, and bacon or something. Let's hope we don't burn down the apartment building. I'll update tonight. -P ♡

Breakfast went well, everybody ate while they recovered from last night then headed out after lunch-ish. Jessie stayed and hung out and we cuddled a little while watching Netflix. I told him I could take him home later since Saige and Peyton had to go somewhere. A couple bowls and some serial killer documentaries later I was driving him home to his apartment where, surprise surprise, we smoked yet again. Made out in his bed for a while before accidentally taking a nap. I don't know love, he's just nice to hang out with. I don't know if this is going to turn into something more than just a smoke and fuck buddy and I don't know if I want it to. This kind of relationship is kinda all I want right now. The commitment to another person in the sense of a relationship sounds like too much to take on mentally, somebody to just hang out with and have fun every once in a while is nice. I hope that's all Jessie is thinking too. I just got home, I'm gonna make some dinner and bake some brownies or something then fall asleep probably.

-P ♡