Love,
Nobody tells you how to heal yourself. Everybody will tell you to just keep going to 'be strong' that 'somebody always has it worse'. Some may tell you to go to therapy but they won't tell you that there is, in fact, a way to do therapy wrong. Therapists only work if you know how to use them, they'll never know something is wrong unless you tell them and well... more often than not you don't tell unless you're asked. Just leads to a lot of sessions of pretending and giving out the bare minimum so they don't think you're faking it. But they're therapists, right? Their whole job is to treat mental health, they can't treat what they don't know is there. And when you've spent your whole life juggling different personalities in order to fit in and seem normal, they never know the difference. Who knows where I'm going on this path of self healing, all I know is I don't like where I've been so I'll be better where I go.
I knew it wouldn't be easy, it's like losing myself on purpose just to work even harder to find myself again. Trying to heal from things I don't even remember all the while everything else is going on in my life. I feel like I am constantly busy even when I am doing nothing. Taking a break from anything makes me feel guilty and actually being productive is even more exhausting. I have been strong for far too long with no end in sight. I know it will be self fulfilling when I finally get to the place I want to be mentally. But the work of getting there makes me want to just give up. I keep pushing, I am stronger than I think I am.
-P ♡
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