Letters to Love

Letter 3

Love,

I have made the extravagant decision to take myself out on a date. I know I've said previously that I was going to date myself but I didn't realize this is what you had in mind. I am going to my favorite pho restaurant tonight, getting ready for myself, looking my best for myself, everything for me. This pho restaurant is a childhood memory for me in a sense. My parents would take both me and my sister here when we were younger. They would order two huge bowls of whatever kind of pho they were having that night as well as two small side bowls of steamed white rice for me and my sister. While we were waiting for our food we would eat the crispy fried wontons like chips and spend time as a family. Those are the moments I miss the most as I grow into adulthood. I have decided that I will do things that make me happy and getting pho is one of those things. I got ready and went to the restaurant, sat down at my mama's favorite booth then ordered a large bowl of my dad's favorite pho and a small bowl of steamed white rice. I ate my crispy fried wontons while I waited for my food to come out, spent time with myself, watched the other families who were eating and just enjoyed my own company. As I watched the other families interact I realized how much I miss having my family together as one unit. I thought about how much a broken home affected me growing up. Something that I hadn't stopped to think about before. Something that I wouldn't have realized if it wasn't for this 'date'. I sat on the happy memories of my childhood while the waiter brought my food to the table. I slowly began to dig into the delicious bowl that was sitting in front of me until my stomach was screaming at me to stop. I brought my leftovers home in a flimsy styrofoam container to have for lunch tomorrow, then came back home where I am now writing this very letter. I am full and tired and going to bed.

-P ♡