Letters to Love

Letter 26

Love,

Sometimes things don't go as planned. Some things simply don't align with the plans of the universe. I still am unsure whether or not this is one of them. If this is one of those things that will simply not work out. I don't know if I'll ever know if this is meant to be or if I am just being blind to what's right in front of my face. These thoughts aren't coming from a place of doubt nor are they coming from a place of regret. This is just the first time I have wanted to commit to somebody like this. I want her to be my girlfriend. We've been going out for three months now but I haven't asked her to be my girlfriend but she hasn't asked if I want to be her partner either and I think that's where the fear is coming from. I am tempted to take the leap and just ask and get it over with so I can cease the anticipation of wondering. I don't have doubts about wanting to be in a relationship. I've been working on myself for so long now I feel that I am ready and I can healthily be in a relationship at this point in my life, without bringing more harm than good. I think I'm just more nervous that she's having second thoughts or that she isn't in the same mindset that I am. I guess I'll never know if we don't talk about it so maybe I should. There's nothing wrong with asking if the worst thing she can say is no. Best of the worst case scenarios is that she says not yet and she would rather wait a little longer before coming to a full commitment. I don't know. I'm overthinking, I know. I'm just going to talk to her and see where her head is at and if we're on the same page then I'll ask her to be my girlfriend. Until then, Love.

-P ♡