A Decade Of Drumbeat

Chapter 40: Picture

It's still 5 in the morning yet this kiddo inside me is already energetic! I woke up because of my baby's kicks. I smiled, knowing how happy my baby inside me.

Dumilat ako at napansing wala na sa tabi ko si Lyde.

I can still remember every detail that happened last night. Those are still fresh in my heart and mind. We've watched the fireworks together with our baby. He never put away his hand on my tummy until he fell asleep still in that position.

He was still scared last night even I've told him many times that I won't leave him again, but that doesn't help at all.

Suot ko pa ngayon ang dress na sinuot ko kahapon sa lakad namin. Hindi na ako nakapagbihis dahil ayaw niyang mawalay ako sa tabi niya.

Takot siya,takot na takot. I was very hurt last night. I saw how scared he is and I felt him shaking when he hugged me.

He fell asleep hugging me with his face on my breast, tss. Yeah, I noticed that it's his favorite part of me, he likes to place his face there...such an asshole!

I look for my slippers while tying my hair, on my way to the terrace.

Nilingon ko muna isang beses ang frame na nakapatong sa maliit na mesa.

I smiled. Lyde ordered someone to buy my first painting, he wants to keep it dahil ito nalang daw ang alaala niya sa'kin habang magkalayo kami. He wants to own it. He said that it's so precious for him because I made it.

I smiled widely when I saw him, topless. morning! clingy kong sabi at niyakap ang leeg nito.

Good morning! did I disturb you? he asked me.

Nope. kumalas ako. this baby disturbed me. nakapamewang kong sabi habang tinuturo ang tiyan ko.

Really? then he chuckled.

Sipa nang sipa, ramdam kong masayang-masaya siya.

Kinuha niya ang upuan at nilagay sa harap ko para makaupo siya at mapantayan ang tiyan ko.

Nabigla ako nang itaas niya ang dress ko para mas mahawakan ang aking tiyan. I'm with my shorts naman, but my shorts is very short, it's like a panty already.

You hurting your momma, you should behave, okay? I know you're happy but your momma is sleeping. You should not be hyper, love.

Love?

"Baby" is only for you. bulong niya sabay hawak sa ibaba ko, teasing me.

Nasa hapag kami, magkaharap at tahimik lang. He is asking me what I want to eat and now, my craziness came.

Malungkot akong umiling. Kumunot ang noo niya, natatawa ata sa mukha ko.

Why? malambing niyang tanong.

I don't know.

Mas lalo siyang naguluhan. tell me what food you are thinking. Just think of a food, I will cook it for you.

Part of my pregnancy is this, I experience this a lot, Lyde. There are times where I don't know what to eat but I want to eat. I want something but I don't know what's that something. I spread my arms on the table and lay my head there. it's hard to be pregnant.

He held my two hands, slowly playing with my fingers. what can I help you? if I could just be pregnant.

Baliw! natawa ako nang ma-imagine ang itsura niya kapag buntis, haha!