A Decade Of Drumbeat

Chapter 19: Deserve

What? I asked her. She's observing me weirdly. She looked at my body back to my face and stared at Lyde. what?natatawa kong tanong. nakakamatay naman yang mga tingin mo. sabay taas ng dalawang kamay.

Talaga lang. aniya habang nakataas ang isang bandang labi.

Bakit? tanong ko.

Wala, babe.Papatayin ko lang yang isa mo in 30 minutes.

Timer starts now! kunwari pang nagtimer si Gerald. condolence in advance, bro.

Thanks, bro! at nakipagfist bump pa.

Niyakap ko nalang ito and I gave her morning kiss.

Ang daya mo ah, hindi mo ako sinamahan sa pagtulog kagabi. Tumabi ka pa talaga sa gago. pagtatampo nito.

Lumabas ako because I can't sleep, timing na lumabas rin siya kaya ayun.

Timing na lumabas? o baka hinihintay ka talaga. He booked a room for the two of you, so surely it's not a coincidence. maybe?

Sorry na.

You can sleep with him but with me, not.

Kagabi lang naman eh tsaka, mas gusto naman kitang katabi.

May laban ba and bestfriend sa crush? tss. tinatanong ako ng mga mata ni Lyde ano daw ang nangyari kay Mitch pero binalewala ko nalang ito.

I hate him, you know that.

You love him.

Paano ko mamahalin yun ng ganon kadali? love is not like that.....I think?

You can, your heart will decide and you can't stop it.

So paano ko malalaman kung mahal ko siya? they are far from us kaya okay lang na mag-usap kami.

You can feel it.

Paano nga?

I can't explain it Leigh, it's hard to explain when it comes to love. really huh.

What else? tell me more para malaman ko, wala akong ideya.

Ask Lyde, tutal close naman kayo.

Gosh! you're really jealous of him?! ‘di ko makapaniwalang tanong at natatawa.

Syempre, sino ba naman ang hindi magtatampo kung mas paglalaanan mo siya ng oras kaysa sa'kin?

Okay, babawi na ako. Don't mind about him na, I will not sleep next to him again.

Talaga lang ha, kahit kasal na kayo?

The heck?! hindi naman yan mangyayari. my mouth said but my heart is complaining.

Malay mo, magwork ang kalandian niyo. Galing mo na ngang lumandi eh! napailing nalang ako.

But are you sure walang nangyari?

Of course! I said, trying to calm myself para hindi niya mahalata.

Now I regret...not everything, just a little. Nagawa ko pang magsinungaling dahil duon. I don't know what will be the reaction of mama kapag nalaman niya kaya naman sana hindi ako madulas.