A Decade Of Drumbeat

Chapter 24: Farewell

It's still morning but she's stressing me out already.

Leigh, sayang kung hindi ka sasali.

Mitch, you know me and you know that I don't like contests, competitions, pageants or anything else because it's very crowded, and it's my weakness. I explained.

I know, kung ganito lang ang mukha ko edi ako nalang sana ang sumali. she said while waggling my face.

Then join, you're beautiful without confidence.

You are too! wala ka ring confidence at mas iniisip mo ang sasabihin ng tao sa'yo. Ghurl, let them judge you and prove them that they are wrong!

Susuportahan pa kita kung ikaw ang sasali.

When it comes to this, ako ang laging naiipit. She's like a mom who always pushes her daughter to join any competitions at school. Gusto niyang tuwing may event sa school kasali ako kaya kapag may announcement na about sa mga ganon, hindi ko na siya pinapansin.

Sayang ang kagandahan mo kung hindi mo ipapakita sa madla.

I don't need to prove them I'm beautiful, it's not my attitude to be proud of what I have. I wanna live a simple life, you know.

Maraming umaappreciate sa'kin at hindi lang pagpapasalamat ang sukli ko sakanila, I always tell them that they are also beautiful.

I don't want to just receive, I want to give back and giving back is what my attitude.

Halos lahat ng taong makikilala ko sinasabihan akong maganda, mabait, matalino and other good compliments pero kailan man, hindi ko ito pinagmayabang. Hindi ko rin pinamukha sa ate ko lahat ng appreciation ng mga tao sa'kin, never.

At kapag yan sila magsasalita na and they will start comparing me and my ate, that's the only time that I will really react. Hindi sa magagalit ako pero sasabihan ko lang sila that I don't need their opinion. And after they compared us, my ate will start wallowing in self pity.

I have classmates too na sinasabihan nila ang sarili nila na maganda kahit biro lang naman pero iba ang dating sa akin. I don't know, maybe it's fine because it is just a joke pero hindi ako nakakasakay kasi kahit isang beses, hindi ko sinabihan ng maganda ang sarili ko kahit biro lang, wala talaga.

I'm thankful for those people who always acknowledge me especially Mitch. Even the first day we met, I can't count how many "you're so beautiful" I've received from her, haha.

Maganda si Mitch, the combination of gorgeous and hot, like what I've always say. Matalino rin ito at madiskarte kaya lang, wala siyang confidence. If I'm afraid that people might judge me, then she's afraid to be outcasted because she doesn't trust herself.

Ayaw kong sumali Leigh kasi maging kalaban kita at alam kong first round pa lang, wala na akong laban. then she laughed.

Duh! just admit it na wala ka talagang tiwala sa sarili mo. when you look at her face, you can tell that she is very confident and fearless even her attitude, parang ganon pero sa kaloob-looban niya, wala talaga itong tiwala sa kaniyang sarili.

Please, this is the last time na sasali ka sa mga ganito, promise. Ito na ang last kong hiling, baka sakaling mamamatay na ako bukas kaya grab the chance. pabiro kong hinila ang buhok niya.

Don't say like that!

Takot! hahahaha. Takot ka bang mawalan ng kaibigan?