Love and Weakness (Third Part of "Love In The Spotlight") MJ Fantasy

Chapter 3: Can't Keep Them Happy

Michael's POV

Junior giggled wildly as I pushed him on the swing. I came to play with him, hoping it would put me in a better mood, but I've been staring into space this whole time, thinking about Zoe.

Why do I keep kissing her? Every time it happens, I don't even think about what I'm doing. Maybe I'm just so used to kissing her that I forget I'm not supposed to anymore. Or maybe I just feel bad that she's having my child and trying to deal with our divorce at the same time. Or maybe I just still love her.

But that can't be it. Lisa is my lady now. I love her. I can't be in love with two women at once. I'm not that kind of guy. Oh god, if Lisa knew about all of this she would be crushed. And if Zoe knew about Lisa she would be crushed. What the hell did I get myself into?

"Higher, Daddy!" Junior squeeled. I shook my thoughts away and pushed him higher. At least somebody in this house is happy. I don't know how Junior will react when Zoe gets her own house. What will he think? He'll never understand, especially when Lisa and her kids move in.

I sighed. Maybe the divorce wasn't such a good idea after all. Maybe we could've legally separated until I knew for sure what was best for us. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love Lisa very much, and I want to be with her, but is it worth hurting my family?

My cell phone rang in my pocket and I pulled it out to see who was calling. It's Lisa. "I'll be right back, buddy." I told Junior as I stepped away from the swings to answer the phone. "Hey, baby."

"Michael," Lisa chirped. "How are you? I miss you..."

I smiled and tucked my bottom lip into my teeth. "I miss you more."

"I want to see you. Can you come over?"

I looked over my shoulder at Junior who was waiting patiently for me to return. "Not tonight..."

"Well can I come over there?" She asked.

I sighed and ran my hands over my face. "Now is not really a good time, Lisa."

She groaned. "But baby I miss you so much... I hate being away from you."

"I hate being away from you too..."

"So how about tomorrow then? I can bring the kids so Zoe will think it's just a little play date and then you and I can sneak off somewhere."

I sighed. "I'm really not comfortable with you and Zoe being here at the same time."

"Why not?" She questioned. "I've been over there plenty of times before while she was there."

I rolled my eyes. Why is she being so argumentative? "That was before you and I were together..."

"So? She still doesn't know we're together, so it doesn't make a difference."

I held the phone away from my ear for a second and took a deep breath. "Lisa, I need you to be understanding..."

"I have been understanding, Michael. This whole time I've been nothing but understanding."

"Well I need you to keep understanding for another four months. Can you do that?"

"Four months?" She gasped. "I thought she only had two months left?"

"Yeah well today we decided to wait two months after the baby is born to begin the divorce process."

She remained silent for a few seconds. "It just keeps adding up, Michael."

"I know, baby. I'm sorry."