Justin pov
I feel lonely now, Marcel has finally decided to leave me alone I should be happy, I should be happy that he's save but I wasn't.
I feel empty and i couldn't help but scream, I felt like crying, i should be happy but I wasn't.
I feel alone, alone the way I felt when my mother died.
The feeling of emptiness Is back and I held my chest so tight.
I drove home as I made my way to the piano room.
I knew it's been long I have ever played but right now I needed it . This waa once my source of joy but nowi don't even know what it is again.
Because it brings bad memories which I don't want to remember.
I sat on the chair looking at the piano and i looked at the writing that I placed "I love you mom".
I felt wrecked I just looked at it as tears started falling down my eyes.
The feeling of loneliness, it felt like there was big hole on my heart that wouldn't close when I already thought I had found happiness, when the hole In my cheat was already closing, when I thought everything will be fine but it isn't.
I looked at the piano as I placed my hands on the keyboard.
I don't know the confident I felt to play it like I normally do when I was young as I took a deep breath before I started to play and sing along.
Days pass by and my eyes stay dry, and I think that I'm okay.
'Til I find myself in conversation, fading away
The way you smile, the way you walk
The time you took to teach me all that you had taught
Tell me, how am I supposed to move on?
These days I'm becoming everything that I hate
Wishing you were around but now it's too late
My mind is a place that I can't escape your ghost
Sometimes I wish that I could wish it all away
One more rainy day without you
Sometimes I wish that I could see you one more day
One more rainy day
"I feel lonely, I missed my mom, I missed Marcel , I missed Bella, I missed the way I smiled. I don't feel happy again , I can't socialize with people normally without being scared if am doing the right thing because am been watched by that monster I call father. I just closed my eyes as I continue to play and sing".
Oh, I'm a wreck without you here
Yeah, I'm a wreck since you've been gone
I've tried to put this all behind me
I think I was wrecked all along
Yeah, I'm a wreck
"An wreck , I broken beyond repair, there's nothing or a piece of happiness I have. That Monster has broken me beyond repair and am so scared of Marcel going through that and Bella. Hurting them hurts me more than I have ever felt hurt but there's nothing I can do but keep them safe. I try to tell them but am scared they'll neglect me and look at me with intimidated eyes. Mom what do I do am hopeless without you".
They say that the time will heal it, the pain will go away
But everything, it reminds me of you and it comes in waves
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Bullied by the mafia son •Completed ✓
Romance#1 Heartbroken #3 Crush As a Mafia King son, I had given myself a rule to never fall in love with any girl after my father killed my mother in front of me. To prevent my father's enemies from finding me I was sent away to the US to attend high sc...