The White Phoenix

Chapter 43 - The Kiss

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Wei Ying was sitting outside beside the river. He had a lot on his mind. He spend the last year being a good man and holding back from Lan Wangji. He would remain the same towards him, sleep beside him, hug him, and snuggle with him. The problem, his heart was hurting. He didn't understand why he was having such a hard time adapting to these changes.

He also wondered, 'sixteen isn't all that far from fifteen. To A'Zhan, I'm always going to be a baby,' Wei Ying's mind was a mess, 'why can't I just talk to him?'

Lan Wangji was also feeling that pinching pain in his heart. He can feel the pain Wei Ying feels. He wants to give in, but deep down, he wonders if he can hold back. He would never forgive himself if he went overboard. Lan Xichen looked at his brother and could see his confusion.

"Why don't you just give in?" Xichen asked.

"Excuse me?" Wangji asked.

"It's obvious, you both want to be closer, just kiss him. It's just kissing. I trust that you will not go overboard," Xichen told him.

"Isn't it wrong though? Him being sixteen?" Wangji asked.

"Well, most sixteen year olds are curious about being kissed. He isn't any different from that. A'Ying loves you and you love him. It's like the gods are taunting you now that you two are closer to his ascension," Xichen said.

Lan Wangji nodded, "you are annoying sometimes," He said standing from his seat.

"What?" Xichen asked in protest.

"Annoying that you always tend to get the final word with me," Wangji said.

"Oh, I'm sorry I know how to handle your stubbornness...kind of," Xichen said sarcastically.

Lan Wangji huffed and walked away. He then made his way over to Wei Ying. Wei Ying was sitting with his legs hugging to his chest. Him sitting that way, let Lan Wangji know that Wei Ying was hurting. He then moved beside him and sat down.

"A'Ying, I think you and I should talk," Wangji told him.

Wei Ying nodded and turned to face Wangji a bit more, "what about?" He asked.

Lan Wangji took a moment to decide, speak or just go for it. He raised his hand and brushed some loose hair behind Wei Ying's ear, "how badly do you want to kiss me?" Wangji asked.

Wei Ying stared at him in disbelief for a moment. He didn't know where Wangji was going to take this conversation and he was now getting a bit anxious, "as much as I want to, I know I can't, and I shouldn't think about it," Wei Ying finally spoke.

"Why?" Wangji asked, "as you are at that age to be curious, it is normal to be curious about things like that."

"I know, but I fear if I keep these thoughts, I'll just hurt myself more and I could lose you. I don't want that," Wei Ying said, "I'd rather just be as we are to keep you with me."

"What makes you think I will abandon you like that? And why would you abandon me like that?" Wangji asked.

Wei Ying blinked, "I...um...I...I-I don't know."

Lan Wangji smiled at him, "if we were to get into kissing, just know that it's just kissing. No further."

Wei Ying's mouth dropped open as he was surprised to hear this. So much so that he stopped breathing the moment Wangji held onto his face in his hands. Wei Ying barely had a moment to think when Wangji's lips were now on his. Wei Ying closed his eyes and let Wangji take the lead. He was just taking in the feeling of Wangji's lips on his own. He found them to be very soft and warm. He could taste the herbal tea that lingered on his lips. He could feel a warmth building inside of his core that he has never felt before as he gripped onto Wangji's robes. Lan Wangji kept the kiss gentle as he pulled Wei Ying to his lap and kept a hand on Wei Ying's face. Lan Wangji carefully worked Wei Ying's mouth open, and glossed his tongue across Wei Ying's. Wei Ying melted further into Wangji as their tongues tangled with each other.

Lan Wangji slowly pulled away and rested his forehead to Wei Ying's as the two tried to gather their breaths. Wei Ying bit down on his bottom lip and giggled as he felt an urge to squeal. So he shoved his face into Wangji's neck in did just that. Lan Wangji couldn't help but smile himself as he wrapped his arms comfortably around Wei Ying.

"I take it you liked it?" Wangji asked, more like teasing him.

"I loved it, because I love you," Wei Ying said

"I love you too," Wangji told him and kissed his forehead.

"Can you do that again?" Wei Ying asked.

"Still so shameless," Wangji said.

"Please?" Wei Ying begged and popped out his bottoms lip.

"I'll bite that lip off if you keep that up," Wangji warned. Wei Ying laughed only for Wangji to hush him up with his lips again.