You & I

Rio

I was in complete shock. I didn't know what to say so I just looked at her.

"Its okay." She said "I dont expect you to know what to say."

"Why?" I asked

"It's just not working out. We've done therapy, we've talked about this together in a civil way and we both agree it's whats best." She was lying to me.

"Dont bullshit me" I raised an eyebrow.  "You don't just let someone you love get away thay easy"

"it's not easy. I just can't do it anymore. I love Lou so so much but it's not enough anymore."

"Not enough? When did love ever become not enough? Love is always enough."

She shook her head and began to cry "After all we've been through you're taking his side" I actually laughed. Sure it was an inappropriate time to do so but she was talking crazy.

"The fact that you think that is ridiculous because he's not my best friend you are. For god sakes El if you murdered someone i'd be by your side." at this point I was actually pissed off. "I love you and I respect your desision but I just don't agree that it's the right one. Sure the past month Lou has gone slightly wild, came home drunk a night or two but he's a man. Niall comes home drunk alot and yes at the time it makes me so mad he's still an amazing father and him going out with friends doesn't stop that."

She shrugged her shoulders then I looked into her eyes. You could actually see the pain.

"Come here love" I said pulling her into a hug "I dont know what's going on behind closed doors but its obviously got serious so whatever you decide to do I'll support you."

"Thank you " She said.

I sat with her for an hour until she fell asleep, crying. I put Lola and Duke down then went to socialise with my family. When I walked out Sara and Josie gave me a concerned look so I explained the situation and they like me were shocked. Eleanor certainly put up a good front. I can actually relate to her doing it though. I did it.

We talked about how we'd help her cope. I always thought that her and Lou would be the ones who were together forever. I guess not.

My Grandad walked over to me. This plane ride was actully such a good idea of getting to see everyone.

"Where is my little Duke?" My Grandpa asked.

I gave a him a kiss on the cheek the  answerd his question "He just gone to sleep" I said "As soon as he wakes up you can have him."

"good. When are you do then?"

"January 7th" I smiled.

"That's your Grandmas birthday isn't it?" He was referring to my dads mum, Ameila.

I smiled at the thought that my babies could share a birthday with such an inspiring women who helped me because me.

I nodded "That'd be amazing if they came on time but twins usually come a bit early."

"They could come on your Granada's birthday then" He laughed.

Granda William.

Again I smiled at the thought of that.  He was born December 24th.

***

After hours of travelling we finally arrived in Rio! We took endless amounts of photos ones with just the cousins then all of us then one with all the aunts and uncle and i had put most of them on Instagram captioning them: ' Rio squad 2k16 #letsdothis'

From the plane Brazil looked beautiful so im excited for the drive to the hotel.  For the hotel it was actually impossible to find one with all the rooms we needed. We looked and looked until I realised that one of my neighbours from when I lived in America was opening a luxury spa hotel in Rio. I phoned her and she explained that 'as much to her disappointment the hotel wouldn't be open in time for The Olympics' I disagreed and told her i'd like to rent the whole hotel and well she managed to get it finished.