You & I

Back in America!

august 11

well today im traveling back to America for the teen choice awards! im presenting music group, which one direction are nominated for but so are the wanted so can you imagine if they win it will be VERY awkward!! and i was up for female athlete! i was up last year for the same award and won and the year before and won so im hoping for the same result this time! the thing about this year is that Josie is up aswell, not that it will come between is if i win or she wins its just i dont no but a bit weird if she wins or i win. but i dont really cara because i already have two surfboards! i decided that hanna could come with me to the TCA'S because well no reason really apart from i want her to come! 

our flight leaves in an hour and we are just sitting waiting around, well just me because hanna is sleeping! i couldnt blame her its 10:30 at night and that kinda late for a 10 year old! one direction are all ready in America and so is eleanor. i asked sara to come but she is going to Brazil to see Tom (Daley her boyfriend) compete in a diving competition! 

After the award show me and Sara are going straight to New York for a shopping weekend then back to London, then we will go up to Scotland for a week and she will stay with my parents and the rest of the family before they go back to Dubai again before school starts!

"flight 322 to Los Angles is now boarding, passengers traveling in first or business class can board first, thank you!" the speaker thing said

oh thats us!

"hanna, love we have to go on the plane now!" i whisper into her ear shaking her ever so slightly

"oh ok do you have coke?" she asked

Coke is her teddy, i dont actually know why its name is coke! she named it when she was two so maybe thats why!

"yea here he is" i say handing her Coke.

***

we were sitting in our seets waiting for the plane to take off. this was my fav part of the flight! hanna fell back asleep as soon as we got to our seats! i wish i could fall asleep now!

i plugged my earphones into my IPod and let the music relax me.

***

"millie we are here, wake up!" hannas soft voice said into my ear

"ok, ok im up!" i reply excited

"yey! is Niall coming to pick us up?"

"em no darling, he is in the studio today, he said antie eleanor would come get is"

"ok!" she smiled

"hanna hold this back a sec please whilst i grap our hand luggage

"sure" she says putting her hands out to get my and bag

"thanks, love" i smile

"can we go now!?"

"yep" i say popping the P

"thank you for traveling with us today hope you have a plesant stay" one of the flight attendeds said as we left the plane.

aww she said hope! i really miss hope! there is defo not a day gone by i dont thing about her, or ask myself what would it be like to have hope here! i guess i just got live it up! i miss her more than anybody could imagine but i try hide my emotions because i dont like people seeing me cry i feel as if it makes me look weak. 

its really hot in L.A, th pilot said it was 42 degrees! thats very hot compared to the U.K! i am so glad i decided on a short dress for the TCA'S! 

"oh millie there are our bags!" hanna said pointing

"yea let me grab them then we can leave!"

she smiled back 

i quickly grabbed one back after the other then put them on the trolley thing to leave.

"i see her, i see her!" hanna yelled

"go run, give her a big hug!" i reply as hanna runs into el's arms

"hiya babes how are ya?" eleanor says as i approach her and hanna

"great u?"

"good, good but tired though!"

"can we go please?" hanna begged 

"sure!" me and el both say

***

"okay you two are in that room with Niall..." 

"Niall noooo he snore loud" hanna says scrunching up her tiny little nose.

"haha i know but you have a seperate room!" i say

"oh oopppss"

"go into our romm and let me talk to el for a sec please i ask hanna

"sure" she says closing the door behind her.

"can we go into your room please?" i ask eleanor

"yea course" she says politly 

as we sat down on the couch and i attempt to get something out of my mouth but nothing comes out just a few tears.

"i guess this is more serious that i thought" she says.