You & I

sleep tight baby girl

today was the day of hopes funeral it has been 6 days since she passed and 5 days since the rest of my family was told. they took it much better than i thought, especially Hannah she cried alot but she helped me and i helped her. 

i have finally stopped crying however my mum has just gotten worse, i think its because she is organizing the funeral and stuff.

"mum" hannah said

"yes love"

"im sorry" 

"its not your fault love, it happens, none of us ever thought to our hope but it happens to everyone some  earlier than others"

i never thought that would come out of my mums mouth ever, its not a thing that she says.

mum started crying alot again!

"mum its ok, we will get through this" i said 

"i know we will darling, we are a strong family!"

"mum lets get you dressed"

" is it time?"

"yes its time"

It was time for hopes funeral, mum and dad were planning the funeral for the last 5 days and i knew it would be perfect. mum didnt really tell any of us what it was like but she let me decide what would go on her grave stone. i picked a black granite stone that lay on the ground and came up at the back the message read  "To the world you may have just been somebody but to all of us you were the world . rest in peace until we meet again little angel".  where her coffin would lay in the ground there was black granite stone over it as well it read "we love you forever and always baby girl" on her grave stone there was her birth date and her death date "may 4th 2003 to may 13th 2013" then at the bottom there was the word hope written in Chinese because hope was in the middle of learning it, she already spoke french and Spanish like me but i also spoke Chinese and Arabic. the writting was all in  pink because it was most effective that way and its a girly colour and one of hopes favroite

once we were all dressed wearing black because that's what you wear to a funeral but also becauseit was hopes favorite colour and so was pink. 

"ready?" i asked everyone

the boys were coming to the funeral and josie was here so she was coming.

"yes" mum said "thank you millie for help me get through this very hard time, i couldnt of done it without you and hopes gravestone looks gorgous the words are beautiful, i mean it."

"thank you mum you have made this so much easier for all of us reminding us of all the good memories and none of the bad"

we both smiled at each other and walked outside. i was holding hannah on my waist she buried her head in to my neck and i started to feel tears roll down my neck

"its okay babe, i promise."

"i love you millie"

"i love you to hannah."

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we got to the church and niall took my hand and apologised of why he couldnt get me. i tld him that it was fine.

the service began and hopes tiny pink coffin was carried down the isle be my dad, my grampa and my little brother at the front to let her go ( i know itt wasnt out then but couldnt think of any other song) because the lyrics were so cloose to we all felt at this moment and i loved that song.

the song started to play and they walked down the asile carrying a little pink cofin with the words "sleep tight baby girl." were ingraved