You & I

breaking the silence

two days have past now since i was told i may need an operation and of course i did! just my luck!

my auntie and josie arrived in New York last night and i have yet to see them. Niall said the will come into day. Niall had to leave this morning for L.A where he has to do 4 shows then the take me home American leg of the tour is over!

tomorrow i am being transferred to St. Mary's in London, i am a bit disappointed that i wont get to get all my stuff and see my dog Honey before she is shipped to th U.K but niall said he would sort it all out whilst he was there. i felt pretty bad but there was no way i could do it and the recovery time for this surgery is weeks! i totally look forward to that! NOT!! 

i have gotton a little bit lonely the past few days because Niall had rehearsals and shows both days. well eleanor and sara have came in everyday so i guess im not that lonely! el was supposed to go with the boys to L.A but she stayed in N.Y.C with me and sara and everyday the girls bring me little presents in its so cute!  

"hey mills" sara said as she opened the door to my room

"hiya babes how are ya" i replied

"I'm good, tiered but good"

"good! emm where el?" i asked slightly confused

"oh she will be here in a sec she just went to get something"

"get what?"

"oh just something you will she later!"

i hate surprises! i once had this surprise 15ht birthday pary hated it because i didnt turn up! ha sounds weird but my mum said she was taking me out for dinner and i told her i would meet her there but i ended up ditching her for these girls i had met.

"millie what are ya thinking about" 

i love how we all know when we are thinking about something!

"oh just that time i didnt turn up for my surprise birthday!" i said laughing

"that was so funny, i remember sitting there chatting to these weirdos for like 2 hours! then of course we realized you wernt coming" sara said 

"sorry!"i replied cheekily 

"what were you even doing with those girls" she asked 

"well you know how i didnt come home that night..."

"yea..."

"well we all got like really drunk and well yea" that wasnt really a biggy but then again i was only fifteen then. me and sara like to party, i hadnt been doing much of it lately but once i recover im out there baby!

"been there done that!" sara said and she was right! we had done it a few time before that.

"oh remeber that time when .." 

"oh my god yea that was way to funny"  sara laughed

"wait sara how did you know what i was talking about?" i asked her

"it was that time at emm whats his face emmm emm ahhh"

"oh it was emm, wait its it the tip of my tongue"

"ooo it was mason!" sara yelled 

"oh yea" 

"do you remember when you kissed him?" sara asked me

"lets not talk about that traumatic time" i say very seriously

"oh come on it was all fun and games"

"NO"

"alright miss moody!! but it was funny coz he was disgusting!" sara laughed

"god i no i did it for the team though" i said bravely

"best truth or dare ever!"

"defiantly!" i agreed 

"oh have you rung your mum to tell her whats happening?" 

"course done it yesterday, she said she would come down from scotland to me and help me buy a house!" i say 

"wait a house?" oh crap i didnt tell her, oopppsss. MY BAD!

"im so sorry i have only told mum, dad and niall"

"oh my gosh YES!!! thank you!!! i missed you so much we should move in together!!!

someone was rather excited!

"yea that would be cool!" i say 

just then eleanor walks in with two familliar faces behind her, it was my aunt and jo! normally i would get out of bed and them but im hooked up to machines and stuff! my auntie looked really fat but then again she is pregnant! she must 5-6 months now!

"millie i missed you so much" both jo and my aunt said!

"miss you guys loads to!"

"it was like one day you were there mills and then you just never came back" my auntie said in all seriousness pretty much crying

"well maybe now it the time to tell you guys im moving to London" oh my god that was hard to say!