You & I

Cancer talk

I woke up the my alarm blazing into my ear. I groaned then got up and quickly took a shower. I quickly put the largest pair of maternity sweatpants on and a jumper and went in to wake Duke up. He cried and cried which woke Niall up. Once Niall is awake he can never go back to bed, which usually leads to him being moody all day.

"Niall go back to bed" I said as he walked into Dukes room.

"Its fine, you've already woken me" I rolled my eyes at him but decided not to say anything back because I knew it would lead to a fight.

I picked Duke up and pushed past Niall and went downstairs to feed him and myself. I gave Duke a bottle which he is able to feed to himself now so whilst he drank that I made toast for myself. I was sitting eating it and I could hear Niall coming down the stairs.

"whats the issue" He asked me

"You" I said dryly

"You woke me up, how is that my fault"

"I didn't wake you, our son did. 'say sorry Duke' " I sarcastically said to Duke, who stared at be then laughed "why is it that he can be happy at 5:30 in the morning but you can't?"

Niall didn't say anything so I continued to eat my toast.

"are you just gonna sit there?" He said to me

"Do you really want to fight" I asked him sternly

"No but you're annoying me right now"

"well the feeling is mutual you fucking idiot" I said/shouted and then went up stairs to grab mine and Dukes clothes for later.

I came back down stairs and but Duke in his carseat then went out to the car to put his pram in the trunk. "Let me help you" Niall said as I struggled to lift his pram.

I gave him Dukes pram then walked inside to get Duke. I lifted his carseat then put him into the car.

I was sat in the passenger seat assuming Niall was going to drive however he seemed to be preoccupied doing whatever he was doing to avoid this car ride. I honked the horn and eventually he came inside the car.

"Why are you being such massive dick this morning?" I asked him slightly angrily but trying to be calm.

"Im not" he said then pulled out the drive way.

I ignored Niall the rest of the car journey to the train station where we met lacy, Eleanor and Lola.

"Look, another baby who isn't as grumpy as you" I whispered into Nialls ear laughing. He groaned and I just smiled.

"sorry I couldnt make it last night, I was out with a few people last night" Eleanor said to me with a faint smile on her face.

"A few people?" I asked her raising an eyebrow

"You know what its like" She laughed

Truth was I never. I was never able to go out with friends because i was too busy with gymnastics and when I was done with it my sister died, I met Niall and got sick. I don't regret meeting Niall but sometimes I wish i'd met him a few years later. I never really got to experience being young and living, not that that was Nialls fault, it was cancers. And then I got pregnant and then pregnant again. I love my boy and these two babies inside of me but It was never the life i wanted, at least not yet.

"Hiya Lace" I said hugging her

"Hi Love, how are you "

"tired" I said

"Honestly have no idea how you do so much"

"Me either" I laughed

"So we have a film crew with us today, your label think it will be a good way to announce that they have signed you"