Look what you made me do// Ramsay Bolton out now!
"If you remember me, then I don't care if everyone else forgets." Harwin whispered.
'No.' Davina whimpered. ''No... I wasnt fast enough. Damnit im fireproof not you''. Davina whimpered.
''I love you Davina Strong.' He rasped.
''I love you Harwin...''
''Damnit.'' Davinas lips trembled as his eyes closed and his breath left his lungs his heart beat for the last time. ''Damnit damnit damnit. No. Come back. Come back''
Davina pounded on his chest, breathed her breath into his lungs. She kept going for what felt like an eternity.
"COME ON!" Davina screamed slamming her fist down on his chest again. "Harwin." She whimpered out sobbing into him.
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Davina didnt know how long she sat there sobbing into Harwin when someone came and placed a cloak over her shoulders. Her clothes had been mostly burned in the flames but she didnt even notice, as she begged Harwin to come back to life.
Her tears fell and fell and she couldnt breathe. She couldnt move.
"Come back," She croaked out. "Come back."
"Princess?"
"I need... him." Davina begged through a quivering lip and chattering teeth.
"Send a raven to the capital." the man declared. "Let them know their princess is here."
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"Mama," Vaera whispered grabbing her hand as she landed. Hellfire seemed to know, he loved Harwin. Hellfire screamed out when he saw Davina's tears.
"He's..." Davina couldnt even say the words, she couldnt breathe, she just sobbed out gasping for breath. She leaned into Haenry as she tried to find the strength to move.
"Is he..." Draeya couldnt ask, she didnt want it to be true. Davina couldnt stop crying and Draeya knew.
"Haen, Drae... can you... take your siblings to get some food?" Davina rasped. "I will be right there." Haenry nodded as they headed back to the castle, Draeya sobbed into Haenry as they walked.
Davina could be brave and strong. She waited until they were out of sight before she collapsed to her knees. Sobbing silently, she couldnt lose him. She was dreaming, the worst night terror ever, why couldnt she wake up...
"Davina!" Criston declared running outside and kneeling beside her.
"Harwin, Harwin, I need him." Davina demanded through sobs and blurry vision as tears filled her eyes. "I need him, Criston." Criston didnt know what to say so he hugged her and she sobbed into him.
Alicent saw the state of Davina as she shook on the ground bawling her eyes out he dropped to the ground beside her hugging her tight.
"I can't do this without him."
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Telling the children was difficult, painful, having to explain that she wasnt fast enough to save him. Valyria didnt understand.
Daddy's dead, he's in heaven. Davina didnt know how many times how many ways she could say it. Harwin isnt coming back, he is with the angels. A devil set him on fire and now he has angel wings. He was murdered. He was killed. We never get to see his handsome face again.
Davina never thought she would stop crying.
The kids piled in her bed for a week, crying themselves to sleep before the funeral. Davina didnt think she could go. Couldnt be there and see the burned buildings, see the pain... she would see Harwin dying again and again.
"Mama?" Rhaegar questioned and Davina wiped at her eyes to no use, more tears fell. "Are we going to say goodbye?"
Say goodbye... Davina nodded through tears.
"Yeah, yeah we are..." Davina agreed. "Gods." She breathed out as Alicent came in. "Will the tears ever stop?" Davina questioned as she hugged Alicent. "I knew him, loved him... longer than both my parents were even alive." Davina realized. "I... I..." she couldnt breathe again. Her chest was tight and she struggled to take a breath.
"Rhaegar, can you give your mum and I a moment?" Alicent requested. Rhaegar nodded looking back at Davina, he had never seen her so broken. "Look at me." Alicent requested as she sat Davina down. Davina tried to but her vision was blurry as she struggled to breathe, gasping for air. "You are having a panic attack." Alicent remarked trying to stay calm, "i'm going to help you breathe, okay." Davina just barely nodded as her mouth moved wordlessly trying to take a full breath.
"Repeat after me," Alicent began. "7, 21, 3, 15, 92."
"Wa..." Davina rasped.
"Repeat after me," Alicent repeated. "7, 21, 3, 15, 92."
"Sev...en." Davina began.
""7, 21, 3, 15, 92." Alicent held to Davina's hands
"Twenty... one..." Davina rasped. "Three..." Davina choked out as her breathing slowed, each random number had davina think until she was taking a deep breath. "Fifteen..." Davina let out a deep breath. "Ninety two..." Alicent nodded giving her hands a squeeze. Davina took a few more deep breaths before resting her head against Alicents.
"What was that?" Davina whimpered.
"Your brain has to think about something else." Alicent remarked. "Instead of the pain, you think of the numbers out of order and your body just... remembers what to do." Davina nodded slowly as she closed her eyes. Alicent felt Davina's tears ricochet down hitting Alicent's legs.
"Would it be alright if I came with to Harenhal with you?" ALicent questioned and Davina nodded distantly. How was she going to survive?
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My Tears Ricochet // Alicent Hightower
FanfictionDavina Targaryen had her heart broken too many times. Maybe she was missing the person that was right in front of her all along. 🔥 "And if I'm dead to you why are you at the wake. Cursing my name, wishing I'd stayed...." 🐉 All explicit and othe...
