My Tears Ricochet // Alicent Hightower

21. Sad Faces

"Larys killed them because he thought it would please you." Davina whimpered. 

"I never, I never-" Alicent declared shaking her head. She didnt have the words to express how wrong Larys was. She never wished death upon them. She wanted Rhaenyra gone. SHe didnt want this. SHe didnt want Davina to lose Harwin, didnt want Davina heartbroken and sobbing. Larys didnt understand a thing. 

"You might just be my only friend and I don't know that I even like you right now." Davina admitted as she hugged Alicent.

"I never wanted this." Alicent assured her as she held tight to Davina. "I swear, I never wanted this. I never wanted to see you or Harwin or any of them hurt." Alicent whimpered out and she felt Davina's tears falling onto her own shoulder. 

"What did he do to you?" Davina questioned softly. Alicent lay next to Davina all night, when she was done with her abridged version of her time with Larys, Davina pressed her forehead to Alicents. 

"I would have killed him for you years ago." Davina remarked. 

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I didnt kill him sooner Davina. I'm sorry you are hurting because I wasnt strong enough." Alicent whimpered out in the darkness. 

"You seemed pretty strong tonight." Davina corrected holding onto her. 

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Some feelings are like old familiar friends.

Depression's like that for Davina. She had grieved and hated loathed and despised Daemon. She had fallen in love with Harwin. She thought her heart hadnt worked the same but it beat stroner with harwin. Now that Harwin was gone. Dead. Burned to nothing. Davina felt that familiar depression seeping back in.

"You dont have to go." Alicent reminded her. 

"I want to see Jace and Luke." Davina corrected softly. 

"Mama..." Vaera whispered and Davina turned around. "Are we going to the funeral again?" 

"Not if you dont want to." Davina assured kneeling before her. 

"Were you crying again mama?" haezel questioned and Davina nodded.

"Yeah." Davina agreed. "I'm usually crying it seems." 

"Me too." Valyria agreed as Davina picked her up. 

"What do you want to do loves?" Davina questioned.

So Alicent and Viserys and their children took off while Davina debated life. She talked with her kids, they clung to her, seeing her pain and feeling that pain as well. 

It hadnt been a moon since Harwin's passing and Davina still wanted to curl up and die herself. But then she saw her children, their sad but smiling faces as they tried to cheer her up. 

She didnt want to do this alone but holding her babies closer she knew she wasnt alone and that she had a little piece of Harwin right here. 

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'We join today at the seat of the sea to commit the lady Lena of house Valeryon to the eternal waters and domination of the Merling king where he will guard her for all her days to come as she sets to see for final voyage the lady Laena leaves to true born daughters on the shore though their mother will not return from her voyage they will all remain bound together in blood salt courses through velaryon blood. Ours runs thick. Ours runs true. And ours must never thin.'' Damon chuckled at that. And at that her casket was sent into the waters.

''My gentleness may the winds be as strong as your back you were sees as calm as your spirit and your nets be as full as your heart. From the sea we came. The sea we shall return.'' Daemon's daughters stood with their grandmother while Daemon was impatient to get on with it. He looked around for Davina. He heard the strongs had perished and thought this was his moment. They could finally get their happily ever after...