My Tears Ricochet // Alicent Hightower

23. What a Waste

It's time to go/ Criston/ Harwin out now!

"Hey." Davina rasped out, Laenor turned back to her. "I'm sorry about Laena." 

"She was gone, with him... for ten years." Laenor hissed, waves rocked against his legs. 

"What a waste of ten years." Davina agreed as she sat in the sand. 

"I'm sorry." Laenor added as he moved beside her. "About Harwin..." Davina gave a stiff nod. "I suggested we- the boys begged we go to harenhall." Laenor remarked. "But RHaenyra-"

"It's okay." Davina whispered. 

"It's not." Laenor corrected and Davina glanced to him. "You were there for all of us for years and... you are family. Not just Rhaenyra's but mine too." Laenor declared. "We should have went, should have told her to stop being a bitch, after everything you did... I'm sorry that wasnt very-"

"No, it was great." Davina corrected. "Thank you... for saying all that." Laenor choked out a laugh as he tipped his head into Davina. 

"I miss him." Davina whimpered. 

"I miss her." Laenor agreed. 

Alicent and Criston stared back down at Davina and Laenor in the sand. 

"They make a cute couple." Criston teased knowingly. Alicent shook her head. 

"They are grieving." Alicent corrected. "I just wish there was something more I could do to help." 

"Ali?" Rhaegar questioned leaning against her. 

"Hi honey, how are you?" Alicent coed. Rhaegar shrugged, his heart still hurt some days and all these sad people moping around wasnt helping.  "Hungry, thirsty, tired?" Alicent questioned as she knelt before him. 

"I'm tired." Rhaegar admitted. Alicent pulled him closer, he leaned up against her. 

Davina heard footsteps in the sand behind them and turned her head. Qarl took small steps once he saw them together. 

"You dont have to go." Laenor remarked as davina got up. 

"If I didnt have kids." Davina began as she stared out over the horizon, "I would probably sail off and never look back." Laenor followed her gaze with a small nod. Sail off and never look back. "I do have kids, that I love so much though." Davina corrected. "And I need to check on them... thanks for the talk Laenor." 

"Anytime." Laenor agreed as he watched her go, feeling a wave of sorrow rush over him. 

''Your girls are the very image of their mother.'' Viserys remarked to Daemon, but his gaze was shifting already looking for Davina. ''A comfort and an anguish, as I well remember.'' Viserys added. ''The gods can be cruel.''

''It seems they've been especially cruel to you.'' Daemon remarked looking his brother over and Viserys chuckled.

''Yes.'' Viserys agreed locking eyes with Davina. Daemon followed his gaze.

"Sister." Daemon said happily.

"Brother." Davina muttered taking the glass from Viserys and taking a long sip.

"Oh, whats with the hostility gorgeous?" Daemon questioned "You got some new ones." Daemon remarked.

"I do." Davina agreed.

"And Twins..."

 "The loves of my life." Davina agreed unable to look at him. WHy did he get to live when good people like Harwin and Laena didnt? The world didnt make sense to her anymore. 

"Are they anything like us?" Daemon questioned and Viserys chuckled. Davina's stare didn't falter though.

"No, they love each other and want the best for one another. They dont torment each other for decades." Davina answered stiffly.

''You should return with us to King's Landing. It's time that you came home.'' Viserys insisted, Davina looked to Viserys. He did not just say those words. Davina would sooner kill them both for even thinking it. Kings landing was her home now, her childrens home. Rhaenyra was taking up residence in dragonstone, Davina should have just kicked her out, burned her a live... dark thoughts flooded her and her dark thoughts had her spiraling back into her depression. 

''Pentos is my home... and that of my children.'' Daemon corrected. Davina turned into Viserys looking at his daughters... his twins. Twins. She wanted to sob, seeing them here and now. in person, twins. Davina and Daemon were the twins and now he had his own with another woman. A second wife he killed... his track record in marriages was going to reach davinas in no time at the rate he was going. Him being here killed her. She hated that he still had this hold over her. She couldnt even say his name, he was always he who shall not be named because his name hurt but his face. She wanted to pummel his face as Gael did with Criston but this time she wouldnt stop until he was dead and bloody below her.

Daemon broke her heart a long time ago and Harwin had brought her back to life. Harwin got it beating again. Her children kept it beating but just looking at Daemon her heart threatened to crack again. Harwin wasnt here to piece her back together.

''Daemon... I know we've had our differences, but let them pass with the years. There's a place for you in my court if that's something you should need.'' Viserys said softly.

''I need... nothing.'' Daemon corrected his hand dragging along Davina's back as he walked past. Davina flinched away from his touch. But his grip tightened pulling her with him.

''Brother." Viserys begged as he passed.

"I heard your husband burned, how ironic for you." Daemon chuckled. Davina couldnt breathe, she gaped back at him, how could he say that to her, now? After everything how could he just be so caviler about the man she loved burning to nothing. "How about you marry me?" Daemon mused.

"I would sooner kill you." Davina corrected and she tried to be brave but she was mad and sad and damn those tears were never ending, she tried to hold them in. 

"Oh dont be like that." Daemon declared.

"I missed me more. I thought id miss you maybe just a sliver and we could get past everything, i thought maybe it being so long that i'd want to hug you, my other half but you are not my other half. You are venom in my life." Davina declared.

"You missed me." Daemon countered.

"I missed me more. I missed my own beat to my own drum. I was so lost in the idea of you that I lost me. I found myself again. I found my happiness with Harwin Strong." Davina declared loudly but her voice cracked and her knees felt weak, her chest was tight, she couldnt breathe. 

"Davina-''

"Davina," Alicent declared wrapping an arm around her as Davina stumbled back a step, her eyes pinched closed to only allow one tear to fall. "Prince Daemon, your sister has been through a lot, more than person should have to go through yet she came today." Alicent reminded him. "Also, Davina actually loved her husband unlike you and your former wives. Do her the courtesy of staying the fuck away from her while in the same region."