My Tears Ricochet // Alicent Hightower

24. Aemm- who?

"You missed me." Daemon countered.

"I missed me more. I missed my own beat to my own drum. I was so lost in the idea of you that I lost me. I found myself again. I found my happiness with Harwin Strong." Davina declared loudly but her voice cracked and her knees felt weak, her chest was tight, she couldnt breathe.

"Davina-''

"Davina," Alicent declared wrapping an arm around her as Davina stumbled back a step, her eyes pinched closed to only allow one tear to fall. "Prince Daemon, your sister has been through a lot, more than person should have to go through yet she came today." Alicent reminded him. "Also, Davina actually loved her husband unlike you and your former wives. Do her the courtesy of staying the fuck away from her while in the same region." 

"That was sexy." Davina remarked and Alicent chuckled as Davina leaned into her. "It was very queenly... elegant but also know your place boss bitch in charge." Davina leaned heavily on her as they walked. "Thanks for that. I can't handle him. I shouldnt be here. I can't... I can't..." 

"You are stronger than I could ever be." ALicent corrected. "You can. It is going to take time but you can survive." 

''Go to bed.' Rhaenyra insisted coming up to her children.

''But, Mother...'' Luke whined

''Go to bed.'' Rhaenyra said again pointing a demanding finger.

"Bed sounds nice." Davina murmured already closing her eyes. "This day has been too long already and I need it to be over." 

"Okay, lets get you and the kids to bed." ALicent agreed as Criston offered an arm and Davina shifted her weight to him. 

"Everything hurts." Davina whispered. "I want to wake up and this all be a dream." 

"Ser Criston, if you would gather the children, Davina-" Alicent began as Viserys slowly approached. 

"Oh Davina honey." Viserys whispered kissing her forehead. 

"Night Vis." Davina murmured. 

"You get some rest Davina." Viserys agreed before looking to Alicent. ''I'm going to bed too, Aemma.'' Viserys remarked and Alicent stared at him a moment.

"Aemm- who?" Davina countered her eyes peeling open. 

''Shall I see after Queen Alicent, Your Grace?'' ser Harrold asked, making sure to annunciate Alicent.

''No, Ser Harrold. You have the night's watch, Ser Criston.'' Viserys told him

''Yes, Lord Commander.'' Criston agreed.

"Aemm- who?" Davina repeated as Viserys walked off. 

"It's fine Davi." Alicent whispered. 

"This is why we shouldnt marry older men." Davina remarked. 

"I got mum," Haenry assured coming up behind them. 

"My handsome boy... so handsome." Davina whispered running a hand through his hair.  "You too loves, its getting late." Davina looked to her children. Daeron offered Haezel and Vaera his arm as he led them back to her chambers.

"Such a gentle man." Davina whispered tipping her head into ALicent. "Raised a good sweet boy." 

"I dont know where he gets it from." Alicent mused. 

"Off to bed, everyone." ALicent agreed with a clap as Davina took Rhaegar, he cuddled into her immediately. "Come on."

"I hunger." Rhaegar declared. 

"You hunger do you?" Davina mused. 

"I got the kids." Alicent assured as they headed off. After Davina got Rhaegar some food he curled up in bed. Mama's boy, Davina thought as she got changed, Alicent opened the door seeing Davina in a state of undress and immediately apologized starting to close the door.

"Are the kids settled in?" Davina questioned. 

"Yes." Alicent agreed keeping her face down to give Davina some privacy. 

"thank you." Davina answered softly. "Am I a bad mother?" 

"No." Alicent corrected immediately looking to her. "You are a wonderful mother." 

"Please close the door and get in here." Davina requested. "Nights are the hardest." Davina remarked softly as she fixed her dress, the only thing they could hear was the flicker and crackle of the candles.

"It's strange, I used to like my solitude but sleeping beside someone for years, its strange to lose that." Davina whispered. 

"i'm sure." Alicent agreed. She never slept with Viserys, not like Davina and Harwin had. 

"I think I need to go for a fly." Davina rasped as Rhaegar shifted pulling moving closer to her. "Clear my head..." 

"Whatever you need to do." Alicent agreed. "I can take care of the children." She brought a gentle hand to Davina's face wiping a stray tear when a knock sounded. Alicent looked to Davina before moving to the door. "Hello Haenry." Alicent answered. 

"Is mum awake?" Haenry whispered. 

"Yes, we were just talking." Alicent agreed. "I will give you a moment." she offered heading out. 

"Hi mama." 

"Hi baby." Davina answered. 

"I wanted to check on you." Haenry remarked and Davina felt tears stinging in her eyes again. "Whatever you need mama, we are all here for you." 

"Thank you Haenry." Davina rasped as she reached out for his hand. "You look so much like your daddy." Haenry kissed her forehead as a tear slid down her face.