My Tears Ricochet // Alicent Hightower

86. Take Your Head

"Davina love!" Daemon called out and Davina was raging but she held it down. She had to keep it together until then and then she could be rid of them.

"Gorgeous why do you run from me?" Daemon questioned blocking her path.

"Not running just dont have anything to say to you." Davina countered.

"Please, Davvy, dont be like this." Daemon purred.

"Go fuck your wife." Davina countered as she shoved him back.

"Jealous? Oh green is not your color Dav." Daemon mused.

"The queen would have contradictory statements." Davina countered.

"Dav, come on you know you love me... I know you are jealous and want me."

"I'm not jealous I'm fucking furious." Davina hissed. "She can have you and your egotistical mind. You just want her crown. You don't give a damn about her. I have a... I had a husband that loved me more than anything and I have children that love me."

"Do they? Or did you trick him into thinking you were the world like you did me." Daemon countered. Davina faltered back at his words. Huffing out a pained breath. Harwin loved her. She had just lost him and Daemon was evil. So evil. How could she ever have loved him?

"You. You were my world and I was nothing. Just a damn convivence and a good fuck I suppose." Davina corrected willing the tears to stay in her eyes.

"No, I loved you forever and then when you finally loved me back you left." Daemon shouted.

"Left?" Davina spat. "I was married off. I burned I burned husbands for you! To be with you!"

"You didnt burn this one." Daemon reminded her. "But somehow he burned too."

"Why would I?" Davina sobbed out. "I found a man that loved me and put up with my shit for years. Knew the emotional trauma you put me through and still showed me I was worth loving when I felt broken. Broken by you." Davina hissed as tears steamed down her face.

"I wanted you. You stayed. You could have run with me. We could have been forever." Daemon declared extending his arms out to his sides. Haenry and Draeya leaned up against the wall listening. They had never heard so much hate and hurt in their mother's voice.

''You're good at the falling, not the staying there. You're good at the giving too much then getting scared. You're good at impersonating someone who cares. And you had me for a minute there." Davina remarked. "But now I wonder why now that I have someone that loves me and my children, I wonder why I let your confusion keep me up at night..."

"Because I love you. I have only ever truly loved you." Daemon declared.

''I'm so tired Daemon. I reread every single undertone and I overanalyzed it, front, back, and beside it Where else can we go?" Davina countered. "There's nothing left here to decode. I see you. I see you for you. So I'm done. I have been done Daemon. Done looking for signs in the gaps and the silence, signs when you ran off with whores while telling me you loved me, it's got old."

"I was with them when I couldnt be with you." Daemon countered but they both knew that was a lie.

"There's a weight off my shoulders now that I don't chase you. Being myself, did that emasculate you?"

"Davina please." Daemon scoffed.

"Learning from you that I can walk away, too and I have never been happier for it."

"You regret every moment a part from me." Daemon corrected. "You don't love those children. You always said you only ever wanted children with me. That no one else would do. Thats why you went through 6 husbands.... ha Seven fucking husbands." Daemon corrected.  "You had it good, me and you." Daemon declared. "You fucked it up as much as I did."

''No... You had it good, you know," Davina clarified. "I stood by your side, I spent up so much time trying make you happy... I don't think you ever could be happy."

"Pft." Daemon countered. "I just wasn't happy with you. Ever think about that. You were the problem." changing direction as each word davina spoke he knew he wasnt getting her in his bed tonight. He didnt know why he thought it would work. But Davina was his first love. His true love. He couldnt admit that he was the problem. He messed up. So he pointed the finger at Davina. But she wasnt fragile enough to believe his lies.

"Lies." Davina spat. "How long before you kill off Rhaenyra and make your move for the real queen?"

"I want you." Daemon admitted. "I want to fuck you like we used to. Rhaenyra is a child. She doesn't have the fire you do." He took a step closer and Davina scoffed.

"Now when you think of late nights with me there in your bed, true ride or die, that's what you had..." Davina went on. "And when you think of my body on yours, don't forget once I would've died for you, but that was then... now you disgust me and I would rather rip you limb from fucking limb."

"Viserys is dying. Rhaenyra will be queen. I will be her king. I will have the power. I can destroy you Davina. Is that what you want? To destroy each other? I will do it and I will enjoy every minute of ripping your family apart." Daemon hissed.

"You don't know shit. You act this big man and you honestly think you are in control!" Davina shouted pushing him back. "But you don't know shit, you have no power, no control here. You are nothing and no one!"

"I am your brother." Daemon corrected and she saw the hurt in his eyes.

"I stood by your side pulled you away from your fire but your ambition for something that you would never get never have, it was never yours but I stuck by you and defended you, because I wanted the world for you. I wanted you to have your dreams. I don't know when you stopped caring about mine... You should have known my fire, my fury would win... now look at you Daemon... begging for me. You miss me. You really miss me... I see it in your eyes Daemon." Davina realized. "I loved you but that was then. You threatened my babies my family. One of your many mistakes but that makes the top of my list for when I take your fucking head."