𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 /GXG/

🔹️Innocence to experiment

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CHAE WON
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[Monday, June 30th]

Discovering that I'm here studying, looking at Professor Hee'chul's face, and remembering kissing Yan, remembering that it was real. I can't handle it!

''I can't this weekend.''

''Why would your mother call out of the blue to see how you are?'', Akari asks. Her voice rises in tone, her refined gaze on me. She doesn't know anything and shouldn't know anything.

''I don't know.'' I lie, close the laptop, and I look at her with dismay. ''My mother called the school the morning after I left with Yan-unnie. Have you ever thought if she lived here?

''Have you ever thought that we are talking about my apartment? Oh my God! You will do like this. Every night you call your mother and talk to her a little'', she explains.

''Ah, I don't know. She'll think it's strange behavior. I don't have this habit of calling...''

''It's just to say ''hi! Good night, mom!''. Then you ask her to let you come to my apartment.''

I look thoughtfully at the window behind her. Akari really wants me to go sleep over at her apartment. I feel like she wants something more. I think she's pretty, but I don't know... I think I have a lot of things on my mind.

The wind that comes through the window rattles the curtains. Blend my hair into my face.

''Maybe I'll call,'' I respond with consternation. Then I get up. ''I feel like eating something different.''

''Do you want to go to the roof?'', she says, picking up her backpack and getting up.

''You will show me something new?''

''Do you want to know which position?'' The excited tone of voice of someone who is very interested in teaching me something.

I end up laughing.
''Can we just stay and listen to music? I have cramps. ''

''Cramps?'' Akari's face changes to something... strange, like... excited?

''ㅡ Yes.'' I hesitate to say that. We go up the stairs to the fourth floor.

The fourth floor is always cold and dark.

She opens the door and carefully examines every part of the roof. ''It seems like Yan was here just now. I smell cigarettes.''

I smell my clothes. My citrus scent is good. ''I don't feel anything.''

''But I smell something here.''

Then, she leaves her backpack on the floor and approaches, biting my lip.

''Wait a moment!'' I turn my face away from hers and look at the horizon. I don't know if I should continue with this. I kissed Yan, and I have her in mind.

''I see you don't want to,' she says, removing her hands from my face. Her appearance is disappointing.
It even makes me feel like I'm doing something very wrong. A guilty conscience for denying it. All because Yan climbed on top of me and blew me a kiss.

My cell phone rings. I remove it between the waistband of the skirt and the skin and see the connection of thoughts.

''It's Yan-unnie!'', I say to the cell phone and hang up.

''Yan?''

''Yes'', I reply, smiling, and I put my cell phone in my sock.

''Then go,'' Akari says with confidence in her voice.