𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 /GXG/

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CHAE WON
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[Thursday, December 4th]

Late afternoon, cold and sad. Even though I'm in the car, my feet, hands, and face feel frozen. Fragmented breathing and wet nose.

Once we got to the gas station, my dad parked next to a compact sports car.

A guy and a young woman get out of the vehicle and pull the alarm as they drive towards a shop selling cheeseburgers.

Su-bin goes out first and fills up the Volks; I leave right after, leave him, and cross the street.

The wind blows my hair across my face, blurring my vision. A driver slams his hand on his horn to alert me. I reach the sidewalk with my heart racing and panting.

Su-bin alternates his alarmed gaze with mine and the gas pump. I nod that I'm fine. He taps his finger on his wrist twice and points to the sky, indicating that night will soon fall. After filling up, he gets in the car and pulls it forward to get the tires inflated.

I take my cell phone out of my jacket and remove the glove from my right hand, stuffing it in my pocket. I unlock the screen. Soon, I see the wallpaper with her picture.

I look towards Itaewon, and my legs start to move, in a very slow walk, along the sidewalk, while I search on my cell phone.

I'm looking forward to hearing what Sommerfeld and my father talked about. I leave the photos and look for the recording of now.

This time, the psychiatrist did not medicate me or, like the last time, we would be going to the drugstore and not to the hotel, and I would experience yet another embarrassment:

That day, Su-bin gave the pharmaceutical medical prescription, I kept thinking: "This pharmaceutical is looking at me and thinking 'she's crazy'."

It's very strange to go to the psychiatrist. It makes me feel ashamed and feel like I have a mental problem.

I pause to breathe and contain that racing heart before playing the audio.

PLAY

》》''What does my daughter have?''

》》 ''Apparently an anxiety condition. How did she get sick?''

》》 ''I woke up to her voice. She was laughing to herself late one night in the living room. Then she went to the bathroom and started screaming and talking nonsense. I managed to break the door latch, and she was hurting herself. Did the doctor see the neck wounds?

》》 ''I didn't see them.''

》》 ''It was caused by her fingernails. It was very difficult to immobilize her, Chae won is thin but very strong, so in order not to hurt myself, I hugged her, holding her arms. She screamed in terror. A clear state of mental confusion. Catatonic!''

》》 ''She didn't mention that.''

》》 ''She is not aware of her actions. I ask: ''Have you ever eaten ? She replies: ''Already dad''.
It's almost 1 p.m., and the girl has had a glass of milk all day. She goes to sleep at midnight and wakes up at 5 am. Spend the rest of the day on her cell phone. I need to get out fast, but I have to call her, but the call doesn't go through
because the phone is in airplane mode. I arrive worried and where is Chae won? She's in the same position. I left her looking at her cell phone. I ask: ''Did you take your medicine?'' She says she took 2 pills at once and was supposed to take one.''

》》 ''The high dose of the medicine made her hallucinate.''

》》''hallucinations?''

》》''This is rare. Some people may experience restlessness and nervousness when starting sertraline treatment.''