𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 /GXG/

🔸️Sadist does the Masochist a favor

''THE GIRL WHO LOOKS BAD DEPENDS AS MUCH ON THE POOR THING AS THE POOR THING DEPENDS ON THE BAD ONE.''

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AKARI TOKIZAKI
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[October 1st]

I arrived at Cristian School anxious to see her and found the dorm empty. I got dressed and left. I didn't find her in the canteen or in the classroom. I leave and then find her here, running.

Deep down, I thought Chae won would be really sad. At least that would be my behavior if in her place, in that desperation of being in solitude that she says... ''What is this solitude that makes a person excited?''

I press my hands to the mesh fence ㅡ separating the bleachers from the running track ㅡ, and watching the girl and her incredible speed as she curves forward and heads towards me. She passes 20 meters from where I am and doesn't notice my presence.

As she is dedicating herself to the sport, I can say that she is happy, and that yes, she looks great in her black pants and white long-sleeved sport shirt.

I even worry about seeing her well.

These feelings are so ambiguous. As much as I love her, seeing her feel good without me bothers me a lot. Which means she didn't miss me as much as she says.

Seeing her around the last corner, I walk over, stop on the other side of the fence, hold out my hand, and wave.

She saw me and slowed down. The baggy shirt was flapping in the wind, and her hair pulled back in a messy ponytail. Then she pulls off the running track and heads towards me. Walking as if to control her steps, she looks around as if she suspects something.

All these days regretting the way I acted and nullifying her (about her feelings involved), I took into account the sole purpose of satisfying myself.

She cried and didn't tell me? This may have greatly affected Chae won's mood.

I can't help but feel terrible when I now know I've committed a sex crime.

Her steps are now short and cautious. White sneakers crush the grass. It's also crushing my heart.

I wait for her to approach.

I wish I had the courage to apologize to her. I don't know if she realized what happened. I don't have the heart to broach the subject with her.

''Hi, Akari.'' Her voice is emotionless. She stops a step away from me.

''Hi Chae won.'' My voice is husky and cautious.

''Hi...'' She looks at the ground and freezes in my direction. ''I thought you weren't coming anymore.''

''I came before.''

''What day?'' She looks at me scared.

''Monday, September twenty-nineㅡ''

I think I saw a metallic sheen on Chae won's face.

I grab her chin and lift it, brushing her bangs off her forehead to the side. ''Oh my! Did you get your eyebrow pierced?''

''Yes, why?''

Why did you get a piercing? Do you want to look prettier? Do I already think you're so beautiful? Can't you see that caring more makes me more insecure?

''I just asked.'' I say sadly. My heart beats fast.

''That's good.''

''Mhm.''