𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 /GXG/

🔸️Was it the right choice?

                 
                   ____________________
                    AKARI TOKIZAKI
 

                 ____________________

                 

[June 27th]

The sun is already illuminating the library with the despondency of a day that is almost over. Chae won finishes polishing the broken cell phone screen, making it shinier than principal Song's greasy forehead. When she blows, I close my eyes, take a deep breath, and smell the mint candy.

I don't know if I'm forcing it because I like her. Because she doesn't leave my thoughts. Because I want.

I move the chair to the side, closer to her, and push the chemistry books on the table to make room for my hand to touch hers.

''I've been thinking that... my parents are going out on Sunday... we can study calmly for the exams,'' I whisper cautiously. Completely lost in her mouth. ''What do you think?'' I really show enthusiasm.

''I think it's cool,'' Chae won responds despondently, wiping the lenses of her glasses. Eyes that shine.

''Think carefully.''

''I will!'' she says. Her light countenance made me feel better.

''Finally!'' I sit in the chair, excited by her answers.

I lock the door and leave the computer on, playing a movie. I kiss her mouth, I kiss her neck, I take the blouse off her shoulder and...

Now, doubt, together with fear, generates a metallic taste. I don't like fear.

What happens next turns my stomach. Knowing it will be with her gives me a good feeling immediately. And so I will free me from this ''19 year old virgin'' status. What if she wants to dominate me?  I don't see myself in this position.

I have something else to worry about.

Until I heard the door slam.

I sigh and go back to writing.

''How about tomorrow?'', she suggests.

There comes a time when I am speechless. ''Tomorrow?''

''Yeah!''

My heart races, ''Chae-'' and my voice takes on a desperate tone.

''Tomorrow at Yan-unnie's apartment,'' she says seriously. ''You really want to eat me. What do you think?''

Wow, Akari, the girl younger than you doesn't have the courage for this. Wasn't it just sex you wanted with her?

I feel my heart contract in my chest. A sudden urge to say yes.

''ㅡ Well ... I'm not going to risk leaving the city.'' I lower my head, shrinking.

''Sunday?''

"Sunday!" I confirm.

"Sunday morning raining is falling~" She opens her phone's calendar and sets a reminder. ''Did you hear that Dahye-unnie tried to slit her wrist?''

''Da-hye?''

''Her father took her to a psychiatrist.''

''Da-hye, poor thing...'' My hand slides up her slender arm.

Chae won turns off her cell phone and puts it between her legs, hiding it under her skirt.

The door opens suddenly, and I remove my hand from the girl's thigh like lightning.