Forever Yours - Jamie Campbell Bower lovestory

Had To - Chapter 44

"Okay, thank you so much," I say, as the taxi drops me at the set entrance.

I'm greeted by two buff security guards and I only hope they'll let me in.

"Can we help you miss?"

"I'm Jamie Bower's girlfriend, I really need to see him. It's really urgent,"

"I'm sure you are," One of them laughs and rage flares up inside of me.

"I have the letter that informed him of filming times and stuff if you want to see that for proof?"

The one that came up with his stupid smart arse comment stops sniggering and takes the letter when I hand it to him.

They walk through with me and the stupid one stops at the gate, the other one stays with me.

"Can you please help me find him?"

"As far as I know, he's in the middle of a scene at the moment, can I get you a drink or anything while you wait?"

"This is not a waiting matter, I couldn't care less. I need to talk to him," I say, getting worked up again and tears tingle my eyes once more.

He sees the tears and looks terrified and helpless. Poor guy.

"Uh, okay, we can try, let's go," He guides me in a random direction through trailers among trailers and we arrive to a location that looks like it would be in The Mortal Instruments. I can vaguely see a lot of people standing over on the other side of the set and I want to run over there when I see that blonde head of my man.

"I see him," I blubber and the man nods, continuing to guide me over.

The director calls cut and I can't believe my luck in regards to timing lately - well apart from falling pregnant.

"Harold!" The bouncer calls out and he walks over.

"This is -"

"Jessica. Jessica Thompson, I'm Jamie's fiance and I really really really need to speak to him," I say, starting to cry again.

"Uh - well, we are in the middle of a scene howev-"

"Harold, are we taking 5 or...?" Robbie comes over and sees me, "Hey, I know you," He smiles, pulling me in for a hug, "You're Jamie's girl,"

I nod into his chest and feel the terrible feeling that I've grown to know come back into my stomach, "Have you seen him yet?"

I shake my head and he sighs.

"Well, I guess we can take 5, she seems pretty upset," Harold says, placing a hand on my shoulder and walking back over to the crew.

"Come on, I'll take you to Jamie," Robbie leaves an arm around my shoulders and I turn to look at the bouncer guy as he walks back to his original position.

"Jamie!" Robbie yells and I jump slightly at the noise, "Look who's here," He says as I look back to where he's talking and see J.

"Jess!" He smiles, running over and picking me up in a hug. The moment his arms fold around me I break down into horrendous sobs and he is utterly confused to say the least, "Hey, hey hey hey what's wrong darling?"

I fall to the ground and we're just sitting there, everyone watching in on my mental breakdown. His arm soothingly rubbing up and down my arm, "Speak to me sweet heart what's wrong?"

"I'm pregnant," I whisper, barely even audible to myself.

"I can't hear you love, speak up," He leans down so his ear is directly near my mouth and I whisper it again.

He pauses. He doesn't move. He doesn't speak. He just sits there.

"Jamie, I'm so sorry," I whine, tucking my head under his chin and wrapping my arms around his waist as he hugs me back weakly.

"Shhh, it's okay. Are you sure?"

"It makes sense I guess," I shrug and he stands up, picking me up with him,

"Come on, let's go to my trailer,"

We walk past Harold - well Jamie walks and supports most of my weight, "I'm going to need a bit of time," He mumbles and Harold nods as pity fills his eyes.

We get to Jamie's trailer and he guides me down into the chair as I continue to sob.

"You don't need to cry, it's okay," he murmurs, comfortingly stroking my hair flat against my head.

"Aren't you mad or something?" I say, recovering from my outburst somewhat slowly,

"Well, it's my child isn't it?" He smiles and sits on the ground in front of me and I chuckle slightly nodding, "then why would I be mad?"

"I don't know," I shrug, pulling a bunch of tissues out of the box and wiping my face. There's a pause between us and he just sits there, his eyes searching my face.

"Why are you so upset?"

"I thought I would lose you," I mutter, taking his hand in mine and squeezing tightly.

"Aw sweetheart," He sighs, standing up and pulling me up, then sitting down himself and cradling me against his chest, "so you, took a test I'm guessing? I don't know how this all works now," he admits, chuckling softly.

"Yeah, and I've been throwing up a lot, mainly in the mornings and I'm tired all of the time,"

"But it's been so long, didn't you notice you were missing cycles or something?"

"Well, short answer is I didn't think I was," I mumble and cling onto his leather jacket, my nails definitely leaving marks in the leather, "I just needed you," I say under my breath but I think he heard me anyway.

"I'm so glad to see you, just not in the state you're in. Come on, let's get you cleaned up and not upset! This is something to be happy about! Sure it will be scary but you'll have me and I'll have you so it will be fine," I can hear the smile in his voice and I straighten up, standing up from his warm embrace and walking over to the mirror, wiping excess makeup that has smudged down under my eyes.

"There's a bathroom just outside if you want to wash your face in the sink,"

I nod and go to walk out of the door but his hand grabs mine before I do, "smile," he says, flashing a cheesy grin and I return one before pulling him in for a hug and grabbing on to him tightly as if he were to disappear from in front of me.