Forever Yours - Jamie Campbell Bower lovestory

Calm - Chapter 50

"Please don't drive like a maniac," I exclaim, not feeling too bad now that I'm sitting down, "it's only when I'm walking or standing that it hurts,"

"Are you having the baby or what, is it bad?" He's talking a million miles a minute and I can't help but chuckle, a smile appearing on my face.

I reach my hand out and brush his hair out of his face, "you need to calm down J, I'm pretty sure we're about to meet our little button," I say, him looking rather terrified.

"Jesus Christ," He mutters but then grabs my hand and kisses the back of it, "sorry, I'm a bit nervous-"

"I hadn't noticed,"

"Really?" He asks, raising his eyebrows and looking towards me.

"Eyes on the road," I say, nodding towards the windshield, "and no, I was being sarcastic. I'm calmer then you are right now,"

"I know, I'm sorry," his voice still racing.

"Don't apologize," I smile, a new wave of pain coming over me and I squeeze my eyes shut and squeeze his hand with mine.

"Does it hurt?"

"It's hurting now, yes, but it'll pass," I say in a strained voice.

"Okay, okay, okay-"

"Jamie! You need to calm down and I'm being deadly serious now because it hurts and I need you to be my rock so just take a moment and breathe," I say through gritted teeth and squeeze his hand again.

"Sorry," he says, kissing my hand again, "I'm calm, I'm fine. I just want you to be fine,"

"I am fine,"

"No not your silly girl meaning of fine, like proper fine,"

His humor lightens the mood and the pain is momentarily gone.

"I'm nervous," I say, looking to him, "You can't leave me,"

"What?" He exclaims, looking over at me,

"You can't leave me!"

"I'm not - what makes you say that? I - I'm not going to leave you," He says, his voice still 200% faster then normal.

"Just making sure,"

A few moments later, which seem like a life time, and we arrive in the emergency car park. Thankfully there's a spot right next to the door and he pulls in on a dodgy angle, shuts the engine off and comes around to help me out.

"Here we go, you're okay," He says comfortingly as he helps me walk through the door.

No sooner have we walked through the door am I on a bed on the way up to the maternity floor, the pain and contractions getting worse every time.

Just like I told him to be, Jamie is by my side the whole time and really is my rock. Every time I look at him my heart flutters and the pain subsides fractionally.

"Ms. Thompson," a midwife says, and I nod, "My name is Sarah and I'll be helping you through this tonight, are you ready?"

I can see Jamie looking at me with mixed emotions in his eyes through the corner of my eye as I silently nod to the younger woman.

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My mum has always told me that hearing your baby cry is the worst sound in the world. But hearing my beautiful child cry made it all so much more real.

My head flops back onto the pillow, my chest heaves with every breath and as disgusting as it is, I feel like someone tipped a bucket of water over my entire body.

"Congratulations you guys," Sarah smiles, wrapping button in a blanket, "you had a baby girl," She smiles and Jamie rests his forehead right next to my head then looks up to me.

"You did it," He whispers in my ear and then kisses the side of my head, then my lips.

My brain can't form a reply as Sarah comes towards me, holding my baby girl out towards me and letting me take her in my arms.

"I'm going to organize the bathing area, I'll be back in a short moment," She smiles.

I look from my little button to Jamie and smile uncontrollably, happy tears, tears from the pain and tears due to all sorts of emotion stream down my face, adding to the sweat.

"She's so perfect," I smile, tracing his nose with my finger, "just like her daddy,"

"Just like her mummy," Jamie corrects, stroking my forehead with his thumb, "she's gorgeous,"

"I understand why everyone always says, 'it's an indescribable feeling' meeting your child for the first time," I mumble, taking in every aspect of her face while I can, afraid that I'll wake up and it won't be real.

"Alright, Jessica, you'll stay here and the nurse will help you get cleaned up. Jamie, do you want to come with me and give her, her first bath?"

"I don't know what - I - Sure," He smiles, kissing my forehead once again, "I love you," He says as he turns back around to face me before walking out the door.

"I love you too," I mutter, letting life's perfections wash over me.