- '𝑡𝑖𝑙 𝑤𝑒 𝑑𝑖𝑒 || 𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑠 - 𝘸𝘭𝘸

- 8. 𝒕𝒐𝒖𝒄𝒉 -

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𝑽𝒂𝒍𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝑷𝑶𝑽 :

as i felt ellie's raucous fingers on my skin
i watched every movement she made
i felt safe
she looked right into my eyes i saw how her gaze slowly turned to my lips

"you look beau- you look tired go to sleep." she said as she cleared her throat
i was more than just confused
what's going on?

"you don't look any different" she turned away from me and looked over to an old fireplace

"I'll light a fire" she took a lighter out of her pocket and lit a fire

"this should spend a little warmth at least"

"mhm" i cough as i murmured

"here" without turning to me, she took a flask out of her pocket and held it up to me.

"thank you?" I took the flask and drank from it the taste of rum spread on my tongue

"seriously? alcohol?" she just shrugged her shoulders

"be satisfied that I give you anything at all"

"god someone isn't in a good mood" i took another sip
it tasted awful

"I.. fuck" she cussed out of nowhere

"what?"

"nothing go to sleep is what I said"

"you think I'm listening to you??"

"who do you think yoh are?" she started yelling as she turned around

"stop being like that"

"like what?"

"like an total asshole"

"an asshole! then stop making me like you"
i looked at her dazed

"huh?"

"yes you heard right.. goddammit i'm going to regret this" suddenly i sat up as she came towards me

"wha-" she sat right infront of me her hand brushes against the skin of my neck
for sure she noticed my shiver

"don't move" she says

"i-" i was looking directly into her beautiful green eyes
she grabs my face into her hands to bring me even closer to her
and again i felt her breath against my lips

"close your eyes" i do as she said
suddenly i felt her lips on mine
so soft
is that a dream?
of course i kissed her back
with each of our kisses it got more and more passionate
until she suddenly stopped and pushed herself away from me

"i shouldn't have done this i knew it"

"but it felt amazing.." i said with a very low voice

"don't say a thing, forget what just happened it doesn't matter. "

"you gotta be fucking kidding me right? first you.. you literally flirting with me and now you kissed me how can you say
it doesn't matter? what the fuck" i start raising my voice and felt tears running down my face

"and not to forget you saved me twice ellie so you can't say all that shit" i gasped for air and tried to calm down

"dina.." she mumbles and i felt that something deep inside me hurts

"yeah? you should've thought about her before you kissed me" now i was yelling

"where- wait!" i heard her saying but
i ran out
i don't know i couldn't see where i was running everything was blurry and wiped my tears constantly
after only a few meters i could no longer and collapsed
my shoulder hurts as hell
i let myself fall down to my knees
i couldn't breath
i'm too exhausted for anything
i thought about what she said
„it wouldn't matter" i repeat to myself
why?
i guess the biggest problem if dina finds out i'm gonna be the one whos fault it was.
I put my hand on my chest and felt how much my heart was pounding.
I closed my eyes and tried to think of something good.
i felt something storn wrapping around me
and actually, ellie came after me she were wrapping her arms around me
i wanted to push her away but instead of her grip loosening, it only became tighter and she pulled me more and more to her.

"shhh everything is going to be fine alright?" she took a hand to stroke my head

"go away. please.." I hit against her chest but it didn't help she didn't even flinch
i gave up

"It- it hurts you know? " i said in a trembling voice

"i know.. i know" she said with a calm voice
i had only one question

"why?"

"hm?"

"i am asking you why? you don't want me to make you like me but then you are kissing me, saving me? come on ellie thats literally not a good joke" i say i calmed down a little to speak in full sentence

"i.. i don't know valerie i'm sorry" she keeps holding me like she wouldn't ever let me go again

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