- '𝑡𝑖𝑙 𝑤𝑒 𝑑𝑖𝑒 || 𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑠 - 𝘸𝘭𝘸

- 27. 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒅 -

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𝑽𝒂𝒍𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝑷𝑶𝑽 :

i couldn't believe what happened last night
it was beautiful
but I still have this one thought why she didn't say it back
either she didn't notice or she's not sure
I was still lying on her chest and looking at the last glowing pieces of coal.
I was about to sit up when she pulled me back onto her chest

"stay." she mumbled to herself
i had to smile but this smile disappeared when she said "dina.." she must be dreaming and apparently she is still attached to her
fuck
so I sat up and put my clothes back on and waited until she woke up completely I didn't want to wake her up from her 𝒃𝒆𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒊𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎
after some time, she woke up

"good morning babe" she also sat up
and i felt like i was trapped in a trance
"you okay val?"

"you didn't say it back" i said without any emotions

"what?" She actually looked like she didn't know what I was talking about.

"doesn't matter" I gave up

"no, tell me whats going on"

"last night i said i love you and you didn't say it back"

"oh" she averted her gaze from me and took a deep breath.

"just an oh?"

"i'm sorry"

"you gotta be kidding me" I was speechless because she didn't even manage to say it back now so I took my bag and got up
I already went and heard her shouting that I should wait but I showed no reactions, for what? doesn't she have the courage to just say it back? is all this just pointless and what we are has no meaning?
My eyes filled with tears at the same moment I almost collapsed but still kept walking.
i know that Ellie would catch up with me soon anyway
the thought came that she would probably be angry that I would run away again
i knoe running away isn't a solution
suddenly, an arm wrapped around my neck from behind

"el?" was the last thing I could say before the grip tightened further and i couldn't barley breath
I hit against the arm and tried to tear myself away but I couldn't
I felt dizzy and my legs went all wobbly
finally the grip came loose and I let myself fall to the ground on my hands.
only a few seconds later I was pushed down to the ground I still couldn't tell it was ellie, but she would never do something like that to me?
my arms were pushed back on my back and the other hand grabbed my head and lifted it
someone leans down to my ear

"you didn't check my pulse" it was abby who had found me so she was actually not dead, I tried to look up and saw a little boy standing by a tree with a bow and arrow on his back.

"fuck" I gasped when my head hit the ground for the first time afterwards
I tried to fight back

"you thought you got rid of me huh?"

"stop.." she turned me around and I felt the blood running down my cheek, she looked me in the eyes

"you already have tears in your eyes, how pathetic so you know this is your end?" she said this in such a sure voice that I didn't even answer anymore but just waited.
she now leaned down to me again and continued to look at me insistently i turned my head away from her

" just kill me already if thats what you want"

"you are not even scared?" she said still in the same tone

"whatever"

"but you should be" she held my arms above my head and I think if I saw it right she also looked at my wrists.
my scar..

"just fucking do it whats stopping you?" more and more tears gathered in my eyes

"you already tried?" she did not answer my question but ran a finger over the scar

"stop touching me like that" she didn't looked serious anymore only her eyes expressed so many feelings.
she let go of my arms and stood up

"go"

"what?" I was confused because she just let me go

"i said go" i got up at the same moment but when I wanted go to get back to Ellie as soon as possible, abby pulled me on my arm into a hug
which was very surprising and I didn't know how to react

"abby.." she turned away from the embrace and let go of me for good.

"you know i'm gonna be still after ellie right? so go before i change my mind"

"i know"

"go back to her tell her everything whatever. go." I ran and on the way back I ran into ellie's arms and collapsed

"there you are my beautiful girl what happend?" she said at the same time shocked

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