Always and Forever // H.S.

35| nonsense

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Danielle Scott

Morning light shines on my face and a light breeze blows over my body- wait? My body?

My body is naked..

I am fully naked under the sheets and there is a heavy arm wrapped around my naked waist.

The way his arm dropped over my waist kind of reminds me of Harry's arm when he would wrap it around me during our sleepovers. Except Harry's is tattooed all around.

Wait-

Holy shit- I had sex with Elijah.

Fuck. I gave in. I just needed to pretend I didn't go through what I did. It wasn't easy having sex again with him after what I went through a few months ago but I also can't live in denial about having another man touch my body ever again.

I need to go. I quickly manage to slip out from under his arms and rushed to change.

"Mmm.. Danielle.. c-come back to b-bed baby." He murmurs in his sleep and doesn't move, his arm just flopped down beside him.

I ignore him and make my way out of his dorm room and across toward mine. He didn't even notice when I left.

It was the weekend so that's a plus for me. Hazel is deeply sleeping when I quietly walk in. So I plop into my bed to sleep some more when my phone rings with a text.

It's like 7am, who is it?

It's Harry.

He said..

H: You're so so special to me, love.. don't you ever forget that. 🖤 You'll have me always and forever..

Yesterday, he sent me a dry-worded message and today he sent me a warm-hearted message.

What is up with him?

I'm so tired that I end up falling asleep before I could even respond.

It's okay. I'll answer it later.

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Harry Styles

Yesterday, was the worst day of my life.

I realized i'm a total fucking idiot.

How did I not check what I signed?

As of a few days ago, I have to break off contact with Danielle and I could not picture myself doing that- she's my best friend, my world. I don't- I can't do this but i'm being forced to by the law.

If not everything gets ruined, I get ruined, they'll ruin her and who knows maybe even her career, her whole life.

I can't let her get affected by my idiocy. She cannot be collateral damage.

But there's nothing I can do to stop this.. all I can do now is protect her by letting her go.

They allowed me to slowly end all contact with her. They said to become distant day by day until I no longer return her messages or her calls, eventually losing all contact with her.

I have started becoming more distant and replying less. Also, making smaller conversation, less interesting.

I wonder if she's noticed. She hasn't brought it up, but she hasn't answered my last two messages either.

It's for her own sake. I'm protecting her even though she doesn't know that. She's going to absolutely hate me. I promised her I would never leave and now i'm doing the exact thing I said I wouldn't. I'll be leaving her with no explanation whatsoever. She will never know what happened.